~Two Years Ago Today~

Oh my Go**** just hit me and I started to cry. A this moment 2 years ago today I was on the gurney waiting to go into surgery. Tears of happiness and gratitude I might add. I can't express deep feelings and insights like some of our writer members. For me it hasn't been a big tramatic , need to learn myself experience. To me it was release and freedom, becoming who I always felt I was. At over 300 pounds When I would catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or store window I would catch my breath because at first I didnt know who that fat person was, then I would be over taken with shame. I never saw myself as fat even tho I couldn't take 10 steps without needing a scooter. Couldn't bend over, or take a bath because I couldn't get out of the tub.I had been fat since I was 5 years old, and yet It always felt wrong to me. The last year before the surgery life had pretty much stopped for me because of immobility. It took everything I had to get to work and get home, then I was spent. When my kids were little other children would tease them because of their fat mom..But that was then! As I lost the weight I felt like I was set free, I was finally becoming the person I was suppose to be and has always been inside. I can remember saying at 19 years old, "under all this fat is a beautiful woman". I have always felt that I was covered up.If you are pre-op I strongly suggest you make a list of things you want to do as you lose weight. I can now play with my grandson, wear pretty underwear, work in my garden, WALK, Buy clothes off the rack,Get a date, go to festivals and cultural events. The only thing I haven't checked off my list is ride on an amusement park ride and with it being fair time I expect to do that in a few weeks. Not that I want to get so dizzy that I puke, but I want to do it because I can !!! I am ever so grateful to God for making this surgery possible It is so good to actually LIVE life again, and I will never take a day of it for granted. Jeanb

Jean, I am so proud of you. DIdn't this 2 years go fast? I will be 2 years out in January and I too remember starting this journey and you were one of the nicest people that kept me motivated and asnwered so many of my questions. Again congrats, life is sooo....good...!! It does my heart good to see you so very happy. Rhonda 312/162/155?

Hi Jean, WooHoo! That is so awesome. I feel the same way. I felt I was hiding my true self underneath a large layer of fat. I feel like I am free to be who I am. Keep up the good work. Mona

Jean, I can't believe it has been 2 years already! Time sure does fly when you're having fun. Hope all is well with you! Cathy

I hit my two years on April 26th, and 4 days before that I got married. So it was a great 2 year anniversary gift. In the past 2 years my life has done a 360, I met my husband 4 months after my surgery and 17 months later we got married. I am so much happier and thank god everyday for a healthy new life. I have not gained or lost in a little over a year, I have stayed the exact same weight which is 182lbs. I am ok with that, but would love to lose some more weight before we start trying for babies. CONGRATS on your weight loss and your 2 year anniversary!