Hiya how have you been??? any news on your surgery???

Welcome Tinkerbell...Good luck on your upcoming surgery...I'm sure you are very excited...

First I’m sending you a BIG HUG!! I know how you feel...I too find myself trying to please people so that they will be my friend...A couple years ago my best friend moved to the east coast and I have been lost without her to talk with...I have a few friends but haven't founds my "Brandi" someone I can tell anything to and not feel that I’m being judged for what I’m doing or saying...I have tried with a couple co-worker and get the feeling that I’m just being "weird"...I recently decided fu#k it I will just enjoy my family and when I really need someone to talk to I come online and tell my OH friends what's going on... As for the weight...We have all been where you are and you need to give yourself a break...You have identified your problem and are working on improving your situation...My weight had a big impact on how I felt about myself and you my BF my DH never saw me as fat I was and always be the woman he fell in love with...You are not what you see in the mirror...You are so much more then what you see, you are...KIND...FRIENDLY...LOVING...BEAUTIFUL...SEXY...and so much more, you are what you want to be and don't let your weight determine who you are...So not pull yourself up and wipe away the tears and look in the mirror and say...."I am Beautiful and I deserver to be happy" I don't get to the North Dakota board very often but if you every need to talk just send me a message and I will be there for you...

OMG - too funny!  I walked away knowing I knew you from somewhere, but I couldn't place it.....I am getting old! You enjoy the 4th too!

My son is coming home (July 2-6) from Denver - yeah!  I miss him terribly - he moved to Denver in February, so I am excited to see him.  It is his and his brothers birthday on the 3rd (one will be 23 and one will be 20, so they are not twins) so we will have birthday celebrations as well. On the 4th we are having a family reunion of sorts at MY house - so we will be grilling and having a lot of fun! It looks to be a good few days weather-wise, so I think it will be a blast.