congrats on your decision.   I also had a mom who i felt didn't love me because of my wt.  I was 15 years old when she took me to a doc for diet pills (i am now 56).  She was always so focused on how everyone looked and i now realize it was her own insecurity all along and the fact that she placed to much importance on wt, makeup, etc.  When i was in my 30s and had a baby she made a comment about the butter i was putting on my mashed potatoes and i blew up and let it all out.  I was fortunate in that she had no idea of the insecurities she caused in me and the feeling of being unloved.  In the past 20 years we have had a lot of healing and i am very fortunate for that.  She lives in Mi and i live in NC and whenever she talks about someone gaining wt, all i have to do is glare and her and ask her why it matters to her and why it is any of her business.  She tries real hard but you know they say hard to teach an old dog new tricks.  The important thing is you do this for you and your health and not anyone else.   I had my surgery 3 1/2 years ago (at the objection of my mom and other family members) and took off 125 lbs.  I would still like to lose an add'l 50 but am very glad i have kept it off and happy with who i am and where i am at in life.   Only positive thoughts coming your way!  I don't log on here much but if you ever need add'l support, please feel free to email me at [email protected]

Take care and best of luck,

Pam