Out of Control!!

Hello all....
I have not posted in.......forever!!  I feel so bad right now, need to confess &/or "own" this problem and thought this was the best place for me to start.
Tonight we ordered pizza for dinner.  I don't understand how I can put away 4 slices of cheese pizza and not feel like I'm going to throw it right back up???  I wasn't drinking before or with dinner.  I know normally when I do drink something, food goes down much better and I can fit in a whole lot more, but tonight - no liquids.
The other, more frightening thing is - why did I not stop myself from eatting slice after slice???  So what, my pouch didn't say stop!  Why can I not get my brain to say STOP??!!?!?  I am feeling very bad, guilty, low...somewhat like I used to feel, pre-surgery!  I need to stop this madness and get back on track!  I have to before the weight starts piling back on.  I don't want to ever be where I was before!!  I need help!!  I'm almost 3 years out and feel like I'm losing all control....it's a terrible feeling!!!

Confession is good for the soul. There are a number of us on here who are trying to either reign it back in or take control before things get out of hand. WLS is certainly not the easy way out and now we're finding out just how much work we have to do. Carrie (Goody) has been posting a daily thread to help us all stay accountable - please, please, please join us. We're all in this together.

- Iris

Thank you, Iris, for your reply.  I will definitely check out the daily thread - I do think that will help me to really "talk" about what's going on and confess or celebrate my actions!!
I appreciate your support!!

Julie