I'm struggling to do the right thing...

I think we all have similar demons at this stage of the game. When I start slipping .... I write stuff down. But it scares me......just the thought of undoing my work. You are so deligent in keeping the rules. I think you will keep it together.  I am sorry you are having trying times.  I am also sorry I have not been on the board much lately to give you support. There is not enough hours in the day in the summer.  Of all of us I think you are one of the ones which will be able to keep it together. Now Me........I don't know... I surely hope so.  We have one shot at life......even when things are tough we just have to the best we can.  A thought..... make more jewelry.
Good Luck and God Bless
Myrtis

Hi Myrtis,

Thanks for your note of support and understanding. I think that you and many others give me much more credit than I deserve. I have been eating like a PacMan for the last 2 or 3 days... Okay, maybe that's an exageration, but I've been slipped, fallen, and am having trouble staying on my own two feet right now. All of that said, my weight is within it's 3 lb swing, but it's getting close to the top... 

I think I'll try to go work on some more jewelry... 

Hugs,

 Here we are 2 years out in the middle of a nasty recession, all struggling with so many issues. I am no exception, but haven't been drawn to food. I still have to force myself to eat. Many many foods hold no appeal at all.... bread, eggs, butter, milk, even potatoes make me sick. I find the only things I enjoy are either high protein meats, fish, shrimp and salads. I can't eat anything with grease in it. I still pack my lunch with low fat yogurts and sugar free pudding, oranges, crackers and crystal light. I cannot do more than 10 grams of sugar without getting sick. Eating an orange will fill me like a Thanksgiving meal. People at work keep telling me don't lose any more weight!  I plateaued for about a year at 145 lbs and then started losing again this year.  During the layoff, I found myself drinking a lot of wine, had to give it up and started smoking again. Calorie free, but not good and expensive! I never have any of those painful muscle spasms, am free of asthma or any breathing disorders. I loved skipping down stairs and hearing people say, oh, you are so tiny... God, if they only knew! My hair finally stopped falling out and even my hairdresser commented how how much hair I have!  I think maybe Dr. Farrell took out a large portion of my upper intestine, and made my pouch really small. I had to relearn that food is no comfort here. Once done, I never turn to food now... can't. God Bless you Dr. Farrell and Dr. Overby. They saved my life many times over in so many ways!
Hang in there Barb. God never gives us more than we can handle and sometimes I only wish He didn't have so much confidence in me!
Love and Big Hugs,
Diane

Thanks for sharing Barbara.  I get discouraged sometimes with myself and fight feelings to not eat wrong food.   I heard a pastor say that he has never seen a depressed person who was thankful, It seems I am not thankful enough.  I try to look at my blessings and I do appreciate what I have especially my family.   I am working up for my surgery and having hard time controlling my sugars down to where my physician wants them to be before I have surgery but I will not give up and know others have struggles too out there and bigger than mine.