Movin on up...

And I'm not too sure that I'm happy about it. I feel like I look much better and others confirm that, but I have to admit that it's pretty scary to watch the scale creep up. Will it ever stop. Can I control it? I guess the real question is can I control my behavior so that I can control my weight. My low weight was 132, but just for a few days to be honest. I would say that my honest, low weight was about 136 because I was able to 'hold' that weight for several months. I started gaining as my life started getting more stressful and I found myself indulging in comfort eating. It didn't effect my weight at first and to be honest, I think I thought I could continue without a problem, but I think that to be honest, I let me guard down and a little indulgence became a little bigger indulgence... You get the picture. Life has become steadily more stressful and as it has, my weight has steadily gone up. I nearly keeled over this morning when I got on the scale and it said 146! It's not that 146 is a bad weight. Actually, for me, it's a pretty good weight. I really like how a look and feel when I weigh between 145 and 150, but it's how I got here that has me freaked out. I guess I need to face the music and get back to basics. I need to log what I consume, I need to be sure that I'm getting in the requisite protien and that it's lean... I need to be sure to take care of the new me before I become the old me.

You have always been such an inspiration to me. You have sound advise and a caring spirit. I can only think that if you take your own advise you will be just fine. I know you can do it, look what you have done to get yourself here in the first place. Keep your eye on the goal (not to comfort eat but to eat to stay healthy) and you will succeed!

Hi Sandra,

Thanks for your confidence and compliments. Don't get me wrong when I say this, but to honest, losing the weight, while hard is the 'easy' part of this journey. Getting your head around the behaviors that got us here is probably a much bigger struggle for me (and many others.) and is why I decided to share my own struggles.

My problem is that my 'eye' is on the goal, it's getting my 'head' in the right place.

You'll do it Barb, you'll get control.  After all the biggest part of fixing the problem is realizing you have a problem... and you wrote this, so you are aware that you need to be aware...  Just keep fighting the good fight!!!  We all have confidence in you... now you just need a little confidence in yourself and your own abilities. 

Thanks Judy!

I totally understand where you are Barb.  My scale has crept up about 3 pounds over the past 2 weeks and I know that I have not been exercising as much or eating as well with Ronnie in the hospital.  It's also themost stressful time for me here at work and that won't end until mid summer, right about the time Ronnie will need more surgery.  It just seems like a vicious circle.

Now, I do try to remember what Dr. Chapman and other pros have said....  most patients reach a low and then end up gaining a little back to get to a weight that seems to be maintainable.  for you it might be where you are now or it might be 140... who knows.  I think for me, it will be around 140-145.  Time will tell.  I honestly feel good where I am so that should tell me that I'm OK.  I just wanted to get to 136 so I would be "NORMAL WEIGHT" for once in my life.  I'm sure not going to lose any sleep over it and I think that with summer coming, it will be easier to get out of the house an be more active.  I do dread shorts season since my legs look so bad; you know the shar pei look!

Hang in there my friend, you know yourself better than anyone and you know where you feel good.  Shoot for maintaining at that weight....

Alice

Hi Alice,

Thanks for your understanding and support. I know that we are dealing with very different personal crisis' right now, but we are both under an unusual amount of stress. I hope and think that I will be able to get this under control. I questioned whether to post this, but then I decided that I wanted those who are following us ... and those who are walking with us know that this is the reality... When you are losing in that first year, while it is definitely work, it's not the same as what you have to do when you get to goal and have to learn to live it. When you first get there, it feels almost 'effortless,' as you know, with time and life's stresses, it becomes more 'challenging.' I hope that my sharing my struggles will help others to be sure and do the 'work' that they need to do to be successful. That they will see that we all have struggles as we hit the long road that is the rest of this journey. I'm hoping that we can and will succeed in the long term.

I have been keeping you and Ronnie in my thoughts and prayers.

U can do it!! Look at how far you have come!! I have faith in you and like the pp said, you are such an inspiration to me as well. Hang in there and know we are all in your corner! xoxo

Thanks Polly.

How are you and your husband doing? I think of you two often.

we are ok...just trying to find out all that is available to us. We are getting to fall under TAA benifits so I am looking into going to school. He is looking for a job...We can not both go to school unfortunatly one of us needs to get a job with descent benifits befor the 6 months are up that the company will be paying our medical ins. Thanks soo much for thinking of me. That made my day!