i need help

i had my surgery in 2006 and i got down to 139 and now i am at 149 i feel like i am eating more and it scares me to death, i had a panni in july and then emergency surgery in oct because i didn't heal up well and they said for me to heal i need six meals a day and i started eating more, but i am so scared of gaining the weight back, i can't seem to get back on track can anyone help me get back on the right track, i am tired all of the time the doctor just released me and i just don't seem to be up to it just yet she said it would take me a year to get back to were my body needs to be, but i am so terrified that i can't get back to were i was, i have started to drink sugar soda to get some energy, i don't do it much but at least once a week i just feel like i need someone to talk to

It sounds like you are really struggling.  Try to concentrate on HEALTHY ways to get your energy levels up.  Like high protein, not high sugar!  You can eat 6 meals a day and still stay at a decent calorie level.

Step back, take a deep breath and recommit!

Hi Monica,
I am glad you posted on the NC boards.
I have found it is very helpful to talk about things that are bothering us.
I have also found it helps me to be accountable to myself by listing what I eat everyday.
I use sparkpeople.com to list my intake and my fitness.
Exercise used to be a dirty word to me mainly because when you are super morbidly obese like I was there is not much one can do in the form of exercise.
Fast forward to now I exercise 5 days a week and my energy level is the best it has ever been.
I have about 50lbs till I get to Onederland maybe I will get there one day.
Keep posting and you will always find someone on here that is more than willing to help you.
                                                                       Annie

Hi Monica,

It's not unusual and to be honest, it is generally 'expected' that you will experience about a 10 percent 'bounce back.' So I don't think that your 10 lb gain is something to be signigicantly alarmed about... My low weight was 132, my current weight is 139/141, so I'm in about the same place. I think that the issue is more behavioral. First of all, be sure that you are eating 5 to 6 times a day and leading with 2 to 4 ounces of lean protien. Follow that with complex carbs. The protien will help you heal and the complex carbs will fuel your metabolism. Ditch the sugar sodas!!! They will just spike your glucose, but won't provide any nutrient value and will put the pounds on.

I would like to suggest that you get a set of books from Dr. Judith Beck, called the Beck Diet Solution. It's about learning to think thin... Something that WE all need to do.

Wishing you all the best,

Barb