I have my surgery date.........

Thanks Cindy.

The fear of the unknown is normal.  For me, the hardest part was taking ownership of my weight problem to finally admit I needed help that was beyond my control.  I remember I had to report to the hospital by 5:15am for my surgery.  I didn't sleep the night before because I was excited and scared, and on the toilet from the laxative.  Even after I was in the holding room getting ready to go into the operating room, I was thinking to myself, am I really doing this?  Am I really going to change my body and how I live forever?  Will I feel different or will I feel normal? Will people treat me the same?  Will I be able to tell my stomach has been cut?  Will my husband still love me through all of this?  Just all sorts of things going through my mind.  As soon as my bed started rolling to the o.r. all thoughts went away and I just wanted to sleep because I was so tired from being up from the night before.  When I woke up, I did a mental assessment and thought, mmm, I feel the same.  My mouth is as dry as the desert, but I feel the same.  Did they even do the surgery?  Then I moved.  OUCH!  YEP!  They did it alright!   I'm a little over 2 months out and have absolutely no regrets.  At anytime you feel anxiety, talk with someone you have in your life who can help you stay positive and IGNORE anyone who has only negative things to say.

Take care and best of luck to you!
Stephanie

Hi Stephanie,

Thanks so much for sharing your story. Hearing you say the toughest part was admitting you needed help made me think about that. I still have nagging feelings that I should be able to loose the weight myself. I feel embarrased that I can't. But I've tried, and I have not been successful. I am so thankful that there is this option because the thought of continuing like this is overwhelming. I am trying to focus on all the positives............feeling comfortable in my skin, not feeling so self conscious, dating again, and Barrel Racing. I bought myself a new Barrel horse named Dream Acheiver, and I know he and I are going to make my Barrel Racing dreams come true. I can't race at this weight. Besides that it's not nice for the horse, it's not safe either. I so look forward to getting back in shape and feeling fit. Not to mention all the life threatening medical problems I'm hoping to avoid. There are so many positives! I'm also greatful forthis forum which I find so helpful and informative.
Good luck on your journey, and maybe I'll meet you one day at a meet up.
Take Care.
Vini