Saw Dr. Harris Friday

     So I worried for nothing about what his reaction would be to my weight loss. Seems I'm the only one beating myself up about it. He seemed pleased which immediately put me at ease. *phew!*
I always seem to focus on the negative things about myself instead of embracing the positive and the progress that I have made physically. Mentally and emotionally? I still have quite a way to go.
     In regards to my hernia - I am having laproscopic surgery to repair it on 2/12. Imagine that? One year to the day since my RNY. Totally by chance but I am happy with the date because it brought me good luck last time. Apparently is is considerably larger than he remembers but could be that without the 160+ lbs of flub to try to feel through it's more accessible. heehee
     I'm really looking forward to having it fixed so I can increase my exercise to more physically challenging ones. I've had to be very careful about doing more damage to my "egg" as my insanely gorgeous husband so affectionately refers to it.
     Thans to you all for your support when I was feeling like a failure...which I CLEARLY om not. Especially to Suzanne for that picture of me last New Year's eve. Yikes!! That is what you call "sledgehammer reality." I needed that.
    
Happy Monday all!

Mare

(((Mare))),

I think that we are often much harder on ourselves than anyone else could possibly be. Congratulations on hanging in there and going in to see Dr. Harris even though you were scared. I'm delighted that he was able to put you at ease and allow you to see the fabulous strides you have made.

Wishing you all the best and continued success as you have your hernia repair surgery.

Hugs,

Thanks Barb,

     Dr. Harris was actually a bit shocked, I think, when he came into the exam room. LOL They do have a "before" picture in my folder which he must've looked at before coming in. (Ya know how they leave it on the door for the Dr to scan before entering?)
    
     He walked in and chuckled and said "Weeeelll, it looks like SOMEONE'S been losing weight!"
Made me feel good. I think he may have been a little proud of himself, as well, but as long as we're all pleased...

     Hope Sarah is making out ok. Any progress or plan of action?

Mare

Sugar Girl...  

I'm glad you had a good appointment!  I knew he would be pleased, you've done a great job!!  160+ could you even imagine?  We are all our own worst enemies I think....  We need to learn to love ourselves (me included) and stop beating ourselves up.  Woo hoo!   

Getting your hernia fixed on your year anniversary is cool!  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!!!!  Are you having it in Wilmington? Anyway, love ya girl...  Keep up the great work!  You are truly beautiful inside and out!

Sheryl 

Aw, thanks Sheryl.
Yup - UHRMC, here I come...BUT...I don't have to spend another sleepless night there.
Getting jacked up on some cool drugs, getting holes poked in me, mesh patch sutured to my "pothole", pokey holes sewn up...hopefully more cool drugs, heehee...then home to be waited on by my insanely goreous husband. (Well, for that day anyway. He goes back to work the following day.)

Love ya girl! Maybe you'll come visit if you're over this way that weekend.

xoxo
Mare

 Mare I like to think about it this way. If you had lost ten pounds and kept it off it would be a victory. However you did fifteen times that much almost sixteen times.. You deserve olympic gold. I still struggle with the scales and my personal view of myself but on the other hand we as post surgical patients are unique in that each of us has that special something that is good about what we accomplished. i am so glad I have lost 80 pounds but I am a good ways from goal. Keep up the good work and things should pan out in the end. 

Thanks Push,

I am working on my amazing ability to take a 'sucker punch' at myself every chance I get. It's a challenge. My husband is really super supportive so when I do that he's there to pick me back up.
But sometiomes I need to reach out to you guys...we're all in the same boat...and it's easier for you to relate to what I'm talking about. (Your words point that out.)

Thanks again and keep "pushing" towards your goal. I am!

Mare

WOW!!!  A hernia repair done laparoscopically!!  TOO COOL!!!  I will be there babeeee!!  Whee!

Love you!

AW - I love you but I'm gonna be outpatient so don't make a trip to hospital. I will be home mending for a few daze though if you wanna drop by.

xoxo

Pean~
Glad your visit went well!! I remember coming to see you in the hospital and I had that special shaped bullet in my hand LOLOLOLOL I wish you all the best on your surgery day.... that is the day we are going to Rome (if hubby ever makes it home) we need to get together soon!!!

hugs
BV