Forgive me Father. It's been 3 months since my last confession."

LooseCannon
on 1/22/09 7:28 pm - NC
Thanks Vera.
I know I'm not a failure, just feeling like one. LOL
Look at YOU go though.
Good for you.

PS - Your grandbabies are gorgeous!!!
First visit with surgeon 2/07-383lbs  Day of surgery 2/08-336lbs  Current-226lbs


Shazanne
on 1/21/09 11:32 pm - Currie, NC
Oh my sweet Peanie!  You KNOW I feel your pain!  But they say you are only as sick as your secrets... and now your "secret" is out!  But admitting the problem is only half the solution... action is the other half.  You need a game plan.  (So do I, lol)  I know for me it includes low carbs and more exercise.  Maybe we could do a WiiFit date at least weekly?  Anybody want to form a Wii bowling team?

Love you, girl!

LooseCannon
on 1/22/09 7:35 pm - NC
Hi honey!

"you are only as sick as your secrets"

I LOVE that...and isn't it the truth?
You know that I know what to do. I have done it very recently BUT...
Let's blame it on the cold. Always makes you want those good ol' comfort foods that are taboo.
Plus my sick need to feed others. (Poor Michael.) I'm even putting weight on my insanely gorgeous husband 'cuz I still want to cook the foods I wish I could eat...and have been eating recently.
Sounds like a sick thing to say but
I WISH I WOULD DUMP ON SOMETHING!! (besides cranberry sauce.)

We'll chat tomorrow.
Love ya mama!
xoxo
First visit with surgeon 2/07-383lbs  Day of surgery 2/08-336lbs  Current-226lbs


Nancy W.
on 1/22/09 2:42 am - Jacksonville, NC
Mare, you're not the only one......I'm SO there.  I'm still hiding in the closet tho..........Big Hugs to you and kudo's for being honest.  Back to hiding for me.....

Nancy

LooseCannon
on 1/22/09 7:38 pm - NC
Hi Noods,

I know you're relating. I still have so far to go. Never really thought it would get this hard again, ya know? I'm waiting for the sun to come up right now and I'm getting my ass out there and walking before my shower.
"Nuff excuses!"

Will miss ya today.
xoxo
First visit with surgeon 2/07-383lbs  Day of surgery 2/08-336lbs  Current-226lbs


Darcie
on 1/22/09 3:59 am - Richlands, NC
(((Pean))))
I totally miss you!! Im sorry your having such a hard time I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!! when it gets warmer I am bringing the Spyder down and taking your ass for a ride!!!

hugs
Baby Veins


LooseCannon
on 1/22/09 7:43 pm - NC
Hi sweetie!

Thanks honey, and I can't wait to ride in the Lil' *******! heehee

ANd YOU must be on the edge of your seat with excitement girl.

Miss your mug!
xoxo
First visit with surgeon 2/07-383lbs  Day of surgery 2/08-336lbs  Current-226lbs


Mommy2C
on 1/22/09 4:39 am - NC
Mare, I am so sorry you're feeling down.  BTDT!
(((HUGS))) to you and know that we are here for you.
I don't have any great suggestions, other than to second the Wii Fit idea...I love mine (and need to get my ample butt back on it after a week of slacking!) and to suggest trying replacing a meal or 2 with a heavy duty protein shake....it helped bust me out of my last stall.

Take care....we all love you!
Lisa-
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LooseCannon
on 1/22/09 7:44 pm - NC
Thanks Lisa.
I appreciate the tips.
Congrats on your progress...and I love you too. ;O)
First visit with surgeon 2/07-383lbs  Day of surgery 2/08-336lbs  Current-226lbs


shaunab68
on 1/22/09 5:47 am - Black Mountain, NC
Mare,

First of all, {{{big hugs}}}!!! 

I have in my mind and heart exactly what I would like to convey in words, but the brain-finger connection isn't happening.  I'll do my best not to butcher it!  lol

I think when we are first looking into weight-loss surgery, we have this set of "ideals."  We tell ourselves, "I won't ever (fill in the blank) and I will always (fill in the blank)."  We are even given our new set of rules/ideals to live by. 

When you look at it, this really isn't any different than anything else in our lives.  When we begin working, we know that there are rules/ideals to being a good employee.  When we marry, there are rules/ideals to live by to have a happy, successful marriage.  Then come the children and more rules/ideals to apply in order to be a good parent.  Do we always live up to every rule/ideal that there is?  Heck no!  We aren't Stepford Wives.  We ARE only human. 

The further out I am from surgery (a *whole* two months...you know I'm such a pro now!  lol), I am coming to realize more and more that we cannot judge ourselves (or others) too harshly for not being perfect 100% of the time in regards to the set of ideals we had pre-op.  All we can do is to learn and try to improve in the ways that we can...find that happy medium that makes us just that:  HAPPY.  Hopefully we can make that a feeling...experiences...and not a number. 

I'm going to clip and pasted something I wrote to a friend recently:  "Life is so far from perfect 99.9% of the time, isn't it?!  Now that I am on THIS side of surgery, I have done a lot of evaluating of what *I* can do long-term.  You have to just do the best you can in the moment you are in.  My favorite quote is:  'Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.'  Now THAT is perfect!  haha  If we could only live by that...not beating ourselves up for the times we do slip, not setting our mind's-eye at too high a goal for ourselves...just living in the moment the best we can based on how we feel, what is happening, etc."

Gosh, I hope I haven't gone off-topic with this.  I just thought of these things while reading your post.  With all the excitement and ideals that come with being pre-op, it's when we are post-op that we come to realize what it is like to walk days, weeks, months, years in these new shoes.  Most of that time isn't going to be spent perfectly and because we are all walking the walk with you, dear Mare, you can be sure that we aren't going to judge or criticize!  

One last thing...friends always just pick right back up where they left off as if no time has passed...no apologies needed! 
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