Oh.. those old feelings came rushing back

WOW Barb.. what a very kind thing to say about me.. I just teared up at your comments.  I so appreciate your friendship and encouragement.  It really and truly means the world to me.

Oh ..Jen..I dooo relate!  We go out to eat and when we are seated I say to my self.."why in the world is she putting me in that little booth" I panic but fit. I still think everyone is looking at the fat lady.. when I walk up. I don't know wht to do about the fat brain. Does this part ever change? I don't want to percieve myself as beautiful.......just normal. Like the above post ... I can only see my weightloss in photos. But Jen....let me tell you this. You look like you have never been fat.  If I did not know it already I would never believe you were  ever overweight.  But I have the, lost weight, ex fat woman look. Serveral strangers have asked me if I have lost a lot of weight to confirm my suspicion. But I am happy with how I feel....my new mobility and smaller clothes so I can accept that.  Look at your avitar....WOW!   That should prove what you look like. Lets ignore our silly brains.
Myrtis

Myrtis.. I LOVE THE "FAT BRAIN" reference.  I have to borrow that term from you!  I swear, we are all a mess huh?  At least we look good because now the issues for us are mental.. LOL

I think you look marvelous!  I cannot wait to see you after your next surgery..   I am very excited for you and know that you are going to do well!  :)  Love ya girl!  Your frienship is very treasured and valued!!

I so relate to everything you and everyone else has said.  I have lost 116 lbs and still have 62 more to go but i still have those feelings.  Last week i posted that my size 18 dress slacks are way to big but i have a hard time trying on smaller sizes (now how dumb is that).  This is the first time i have worn an 18 in 20 years so i have no idea if that has anything to do with it.   I am in misses clothing now and when i shop, i am afraid e1 will be thinking what does that fat girl think she is doing...she will never fit into these clothes.    It the 10 months since my surgery, the mental block has been the hardest thing.  The only thing that helps are the pictures.  

You are gorgeous and you have come so far in such a short time.   If you ever figure out the fix for this.....please share.

Love,

Pam

Jenn
Im sorry you had a lousy day... you are beautiful inside and out and I hope that this passes and you hold your pretty head up and get over your doubts!!

hugs
Darcie

Thanks for sharing.  It helps all of us to know that we are not in this boat alone.  I still pass by a window or mirror and wonder "who is that woman" when I catch my reflection.  Finding that I can easily slide into a student desk "SHOCKS" me everytime.   I don't think I will ever get the "fat girl" mentality out of my head.   I also like the word "fat" as opposed to "obese".  I work part time typing radiology reports for a hospital.  One doctor insists on saying in each and every report "obese body habitus documented".   It makes me madder than fire to have to type that in a report when I know what struggles that person is going through.   I just pray that Dr. Skinny one day gets to meet his "obese alter ego".

Good luck on the web site.  My daughter is designing her own photography web site and it has been a big learning experience for me.