Self Sabotage???

I am hoping this is a normal occurrence in the process...

Since I have made my decision to go through with the WLS, my self discipline has completely gone out  the window! I have never been one to just sit down and eat, and then eat AS MUCH of WHATEVER i wanted. The REGULAR me, would at least attempt to make the BETTER choice. But nope not now- I am eating whatever I want in larger-than-normal quantities and I have actually put on about 7 or 8 pounds!!!!

What the hell??!

It is almost like I am having a "last ho-rah"  I have even made a joke with my husband about going on my "Farewell tour" (eating at all my favorite places one last time, so I can get what I want)

But I am starting to concern myself, I am not worried about continuing this behavior after the surgery, but I don't want to put myself at harm during surgery with additional weight.

Is this normal???

 

 

 

To be honest, it's more common than not. Even though I lost weight prior to my surgery, I have to admit to a few last 'meals' myself. I don't know if it will help, but I have to say that for the most part I can eat anything now, that I could eat before. There was a part of me that thought I was going to have to give up and say goodbye to many of my favorite foods. I have to say that this hasn't really been the case. While I don't make the choices I used to make and I don't just eat whatever I want, whenever I want. I have found that I can really have anything I want, in moderation. I wish someone had told me that before surgery. I don't think I'd have indulged quite as much as I did.

Try to start tracking what you are eating. Nobody but you needs to see it. I think that as you do this you will probably start making some better choices. Also know that you are not going to continue this behavior as you make your way after surgery, but every pound you put on now, is another you have to work at taking off later. So it's best to spare yourself the extra work if you can.

The fact that you are aware and concerned is a good sign. You might try to focus that awareness to help yourself limit the dietary 'excursions' you allow yourself. You probably should also know that most programs are going to want/need you to buckle down prior to surgery because it will be in your best interest to have your liver shrink as small as possible so that it's not in the surgeon's way when your surgery is performed.

Sooooo, use that awareness to your advantage. Don't beat yourself up, just do the best you can to give yourself the best opportunity for longterm success.

Wishing you all the best,

Barb

I think you are on to something, I will start jotting down what I eat, and maybe I will be a little more aware.....

I DID THE SAME THING!!!

luckily i just kept wanting to eat Southwest salads from Mcdonalds. And i drank LOTS of soda.
i had to go on a mandatory 2 wk atkins before surgery so that nipped it in the bud.

good luck to you

Be careful with the eating and especially the weight gain.  I know my surgeon cancelled 2 surguries because of weight gain and their livers were enlarge which makes the surgury more difficult to do.  That is why a lot of people have to go on the Atkins diet or liquid diet before surgury (to shrink the liver).  Just be aware... and that might give you some incentive to be more in control.  Just like Barbara said also... I can eat anything now (at one year post op).  I just eat differently now.  The food doesn't have control of me anymore.  I wish you all the best and please keep us all posted.      Donna

Thanks Donna-

I think that is what terrifies me the most- is screwing up my chance.,,,

I hope that by admitting what I am doing to you guys, the consequences of my behavior will be more realistic..

(The last thing I need is a lacerated liver !@!!!)

Kim this is soo normal.
I remember getting my fill of chocolate,birthday cake ect....
Now I dont miss the stuff and have a memory full of food memories.
The one thing I miss the most is...carbonation OMG how I would love a diet Dr. Pepper.
I have tried small amounts of carbonation and it just dosent feel good in the pouch.
Some people have no problem.
                                     Annie

I can relate.  The 2 weeks before my surgery we were on vacation (Sugar Mnt) and on the go so who had time to cook?  I did try to watch what I ate and my portion size because I was scared spitless that I would gain and be told "Sorry.  Maybe next time."   Now that I'm banded I really don't miss things quite as much as I thought I would.  My husband and girls want us all to go out to eat one night next week and I've been trying to think of where will have food that I can eat that won't have too many carbs/calories/fat.  I'd almost rather stay home and cook myself.  Weird, huh?
Enjoy your foods but try for smaller portions.  When you go out to eat only eat a small portion and bring the rest home and freeze it for when you're able to eat that type of food again.
Good luck

Kim,  I think "Weight Loss Surgery For Dummies" referred to this as something like the "Last Supper Syndrome"?! 

I got some great advice on this forum not long ago.  Bear with me as I explain...

I have been the polor-opposite in that I have been dieting hard since July while waiting on getting the surgery, even though I don't have to.  I have been really stressing out over losing weight, which is my typical yo-yo dieting self.  I even got all panicky a few weeks ago and announced here on the forum that I was going to start the liquid diet...perhaps MONTHS before actual surgery!  Now that I look back, I know I just wanted to get on with the weight-loss portion of this journey and prove to myself that I could commit to all the upcoming lifestyle changes...but without the pouch.  What was I thinking?  I could honestly just smack myself now.

Among tons of wonderful, loving, supportive advice, I remember Shelli telling me to just relax and enjoy the last bit of time.  Not to go gorge myself, but to enjoy some of the foods, in moderation, that I won't be able to enjoy either at all or for quite some time post-op.  Everyone gave me an awesome wake-up call and I have been giving myself a much-needed TLC break!  I have decided to say a last farewell to some of my favorite restaurants and favorite foods.  My weight has gone back up a few pounds, but I am holding strong there and I am content!  I'm still trying to make some of the changes that I was making, such as taking a daily vitamin, moving more, etc., but I'm being more relaxed about the food  and weight issues for now.  I've decided not even to record my weight again until the day before my 10-day liquid pre-op fast.  The time to be strict is ahead and oh boy, will we ever have to be strict...and the pouch will help be the guiding force! 

I hope I didn't just ramble.  Battling one massive headache but I wanted to try to convey to you that neither extreme works well but that there is a happy medium that I hope both of us can acheive until our surgery days!  BTW, I love having you as a pre-op buddy! 

{{{Hugs!!!}}}

Alot of surgeons are VERY strict not to gain a single ounce once the process is started!! In fact I know mine would not allow any weight gain whatsoever, after the first initial consult!
I guess get it out of your system now, because I would hate to see you get up to the week before surgery, then your surgeon cancel the surgery, because you gained weight!!! Make sure you are 110% MENTALLY ready for this surgery or it will not work :(  Hang in there girl