In tears.....need serious non-judgmental help

Hello Caroline,

You are certainly not alone.
I am 13 months out and about 20 pounds from MY goal.  I do feel like a failure sometimes reading all the posts of people below their goal.  It is still hard.  My cravings and appetite came back much quicker than I expected.  I get down sometimes when I now see myself sometimes eating about the same quanitity as others - my amount used to be so drastically different and now I finish my plate, which is still a normal kids portion.

I eat way more carbs than I should, so I know in my mind that most of the weight stall is me not following the plan I was given.  I also tend to eat at night.  I tell myself every night that is the last time.  These things, for me, feel like the same failures that I have always faced, which always lead to regain.  I also find myself thinking about joining Weigh****chers or trying pills - all the desperate things I did in the past.

With that said, I am still very proud of where I have come.  Size 10-12 will always be much, much better than a 24, even if I never lose another pound.  I, at least, feel normal now in a room of people.  I still get compliments nearly ever day.  These are all really great things........ I try very hard to keep telling myself that I am a success and that now, I can be like normal people and   try to lose 10-20 pounds.  I also try to remember that if I never lose another pound; I am healthy and I am happy with myself in the clothes I wear.

I tell you all this to let you know you are not alone.  Sometimes I wish that when they do the bypass, they could do a brain resection.  This whole journey has been much more psychological than I ever expected.

Keep your chin up.  I think we still have good days ahead.
Take care,
Elizabeth