Stressing out and really struggling!

Hey guys.  I am having such a hard week!  I am so stressed out over waiting to hear about this job and I am eating everything that isn't nailed down!!  I hate this!!  I am trying to keep myself busy doing other things so that I don't focus on food but it's not working!!!!  My sweetie's son's birthday was yesterday and in addition to the traditional birthday cake and ice cream, we always let the boys decide where and/or what they want to eat on their special day.  Well, he chose Taco Bell and instead of choosing wisely, I ate an entire taco supreme and part of my sweetie's nacho bell grande!!!  I also had cake and ice cream although I didn't eat a large portion of either.  I find myself wanting to snack on chips and junk constantly!!  I feel like such a failure!

Thanks for listening to me whine.  I think I just needed to get it all out.  I know deep down that this too shall pass.  I just hope it passes soon. . .

Unfortunately, I had to delete this post due to privacy concerns.

Thanks Shelli.  We did go to a flea market while we were out yesterday and that required quite a bit of walking.  I do not exercise regularly which is very bad.  Unfortunately I hate exercising and have never gotten into a regular routine with it.  And feeling the way I have felt this week, I am not the least bit motivated to start one.  I know that only I have the power to change my habits and make wise choices.  I tell myself this every single day and every single day I do things that hinder my progress.  I hate this.

Hang in there Donna!  You're right...you ARE in control of this situation.  You're right to try to find other things to focus on other than food...keep looking!  Watch the olympics, read a book, do a crossword puzzle, go for a walk, or do some more flea market hunting!  :)

Yesterday was one day.  It does not define who you are or how you eat.  You made some choices you're not proud of, but hey...that's life.  Some days you're going to eat more or different.  That's OK...as long as you pick yourself back up and keep with the overall plan.

You've done so wonderful.  Don't let a bad day, or even a frustrating week make you think you're a failure...because you're not!  Keep your eye on the bigger picture and keep on celebrating each accomplishment (past and present!)

Donna sweetie~
Do not let one day get you down... I ate like that last week... yep lots of junk.. everyone has bad days.. you are NOT a failure! You can do this!! try to start small like making yourself get tha****er down! I find if I do that Im not reaching for junk... you can do it!!!


(((hugs)))

Darcie

Hang in there Donna. I believe it must be something about being about a year or more out and snacking because I am there with ya. Sounds like others are as well. Plus the added stress of the job hunt etc.don't help. We can do this. Don't beat yourself up! I am really trying hard to listen to that and think more positive. I have been such a negative thinker and I do believe it only helps sabatoge our efforts. So, lets try and think of ourselves as successes and not failures. That's most likely what got us where we WERE in the first place! We have done great and can continue to beat this battle! You are awesome and this will pass....it already has!
Love ya!
Lisa

You need to strip the word FAILURE out of your vocabulary!!!   Exactly what part of losing 134 pounds spells failure???  You are having one of those days/weeks that we all have or will eventually have.  It's so easy to drift back into old habits.  The great thing is that you have recognized it and have talked it out here on the board!  Now, get some fruit or nuts or something healthy to snack on and leave that sugar for the kids! 

When the urge hits again, so do something relaxing until the phone rings and they offer you the job!  Take care !   Alice

Donna,

You are not a failure ... If you were, you'd just give up and wouldn't be working on it. We all stumble and make mistakes, but difference between being a failure and success is getting up and trying again ... and you are doing that. Keep working on having healthy stuff and around you and trying to remove temptation. Log what you are eating. You may find that while you could be making 'wiser' choices, you are doing quite as badly as you fear. I also find that when I'm logging what I'm doing, I make better choices for myself ... maybe that would help? Keep looking for distractions that bring you pleasure and keep you away from food. Often things that keep your hands busy help with that because it's hard to knit, paint, bead,... and eat ... whatever else you might like to do.

Keep trying sweetie, that's the secret to success.

Hugs,

Barb 

Hi Donna,

I haven't had the surgery or the weight-loss yet, but I would think that recognizing the problem and being aware that you are having these cravings is a HUGE step in the right direction!  I know I didn't GET this fat by being aware of how and why while it was actually happening.  The fact that you are aware is a good thing...now you can work on it.  And no way, no how, should you EVER consider yourself a failure.  Just go back and compare your pre-op and current pictures, and think how you felt then versus now.  No "failure" could have possibly made the successful transformation you have!!

Hang in there girl.  I have faith in you, and you are not going to undo all the wonderful success you have had this past year.  You've put too much into the new you, and the new you will win out in the end!!

Take care,
Cathy W.                       

The Donna I met is very succesful....so don't call her a failure. Take a breath and think about what is good. If you get the  job...yeeee ha...if you do not ....there is a better one out there waiting to be found. You have fought hard to be who and where you are. You will not let this kind of stress mess it up for you. One messed up day of junk is not going to define the rest of your life. You have the control. Now Donna when you see me leave a similar message remind me what  I said. I think all of us will have a time of stress where we make choices we deam as bad.
You ARE A SUCCESS!!!!
Myrtis