What does your heart desire?

My heart desires to live healthier than I ever have and enjoy life again.
I do belive that if I had not decided to take control of my life when I weighed 680lbs I do not think I would be here right now.
My plans for today is to do my treadmill,do my elliptical machine,my rowing machine and record my fittness and record my food intake.
After all that I have a mystery shop to do today. Finish putting up laundry and go get my mom a few things at the store.
My desire to live is my guiding force.
                                    Annie
                                       

Annie,  It is taking me time to get to know everyone on this forum and it wasn't until last night that I realized, via your photos (which I HAD looked at before!) that you were once at 680 lbs. on the scale.  I am just WOWED and totally grasp now why you are such an inspiration for so many...and you have become an amazing inspiration for me as well.    Thank you for that!

I am listening to my playlist right now and R. Kelly is singing, making me think of you!  {{{HUGS}}} Annie!

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I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Thanks for your kind words.
I need to update my profile with my story maybe I can do that today.
Gotta get that song LOL.
                                   Annie

Annie - I love the title of your post. For way to long in  my life I've just been coasting. My husband died almost 7 years ago and I'll admit a huge part of me died that day as well. It's taken all of my energy and focus to raise my sons. Needless to say there hasn't been much  (if any) left to put toward me. I made a new years resolution this past december that I've pretty well stuck to. I declared this year to be the year of the IRIS. I haven't felt guilty for actually focusing on me. Last week when I bought my treadmill, I never once thought about spending the money on the boys or something for the house. I started my quest for WLS at the end of last year and I can say that so far it is the best thing that I've ever done for myself.  The reasons why are not vain or shallow - I want to defeat Diabetes. I want to control my life and not have it controlled by a disease.

I may not be able to replace the part of my heart that broke when Kevin died - BUT that is the only thing I cannot do. I am strong, I am healthy and I am alive. My sons are on the verge of being "grown ups" so I have accomplished what I had to do. Now it's time to do what I want to do.

I think I want to go do some more wall push ups right now and when I get home do another walk on the treadmill. I only got in a short walk this morning but it got me moving none the less.

Have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Iris

I love Irises in fact I planted some this year.
I am so happy to read you have made the choice to take your life back.
Diabetes is a horrible condition and the many problems that it can cause.
Since my surgery my diabetes has been in remission.
I can never express how grateful I am for wls.
You are not alone in your choice Iris I am cheering you on and looking forward to helping you through this.
                                            Annie

I have so much I am grateful for and so much I still desire ...

I am grateful for the opportunity to have had the WLS that has helped me shed not only the excess weight, but the comorbid conditions that came with it including Type 2 Diabetes, High BP, High Cholesterol and Sleep Apnea.

My heart's desire to maintain my weight loss and to share this incredible journey with my beloved Ben.

Thanks for this lovely thread.

Barb

As corny as it sounds my heart's desire is to be healthy and for my DH and Children all to be healthy as well. Good health usually leads to happiness or certainly helps with the pursuit of happiness for sure.

ok ... im going out on a  limb here hoping i dont offend anyone.
of course i want to be happy, healthy, chase my kids around etc etc. -PLEASE DONT GET ME WRONG


BUT

-i REALLY want have wild carefree sex with my hubby . (i havent done that in a while)
ive been so focused on me lately ive neglected him. i really want to give myself to him a full 100% -- no holds bar.. i hope no one gets mad i typed that..

You dont offend me in fact it sounds like a wonderful thing to me!!!!
My husbands health is not at its best soo only he can change that and in the meantime I am getting healthy and very perky.
I am hoping that I am setting an example for him to follow.
He tells me he is an old man at the age of 46 I dont think so.
 I am learning about new ways to love each other in a relationship like playing the xbox together,going fishing and boating and now tubing.
DH was wiped out last night after tubing LOL all I have to say is watch out we are getting a Wii next month.
                                Annie

If anybody gets mad at you - you let me know I'll handle them for you. Putting your physical relationship with your husband at the top of your priority list is an awesome thing to do. I cherished my guy everyday we were together - live your life with no regrets, the rewards are phenomenal.

tell him your goal - I promise he'll be your biggest cheerleader.

- Iris