Dear Lord, I finally get it!

This may sound totally crazy, but I finally had my Aha moment.  I had to put my cat to sleep this past week (saad, but not the point of the story). Anyway, I was really upset and immediately walked into the kitchen to get something to eat. This was the first time I have done this since my surgery 11 weeks ago.  It hit me like a ton of bricks just how much I used food to dull my emotions.  Food WAS definitely my drug of choice, folks!  It sounds simple, but I realize the difference between emotional and physical hunger.  I wasn't hungry. Nothing I could find sounded, smelled, appetizing.  Now some may say----"how sad. This girl is so dependent on food!"  I, however, am ecstatic! Thank the Lord that I am more concious than ever of what my trigger for past dangerous behaviors! Woohoo! Hallelujah!!!! Thanks for listening!

Congratulations on your Aha moment!!!  I'm sorry about your cat but happy you figured out that trigger! 

I have done the same when i have been stressed or sad or jut plain bored!   It is nice that we finally get it! Pam

Andra,

What an incredible parting gift your kitty gave you. Some folks never 'get it.' I'm so delighted you did.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure that you'll miss your cat, they give us so much and ask for so little.

Congratulations on your losses and your gains,

Barb

I am too sorry for you loss of your Cat. I know how much they become a part of our lives and its hard to let them go. Good for you being able to figure the emotional eating thing out. I hope I can get out of the habit myself once I have my surgery. Right now its all I can do not to eat for no reason right now other than I sometimes get a little nervous thinking about having to wait for my surgery until August. THats definitely the wrong reason to eat.

Andra, I am so sorry about the loss of your cat. Loosing a beloved pet is never an easy thing. As far as turning to food it is a wonderful thing to finally figure out why we have turned to food to comfort us. I used food for so many reasons and all it did was years and years of damage. Wishing you continued sucess on your journey.                                       Annie

The funny thing is that at almost 1 year out I still find myself looking to food for comfort.  My "A-Ha Moment" came one day when I had a bad day at school, my own kkds were being brats and I had an arguement with Dean..  I found myself frantically searching the kitchen cabinets for something sweet.  (A-HA! )  When out of the blue it hit me that was why I was FAT in the first place.   I wish I could say that first A-Ha moment was my only time looking to food for comfort in the past year, but sadly it has not been.  We are addicts.. and as such have to deal with our food addictions daily.  However, realizing the pattern is A MIRACLE!  Congras on your "revelation".