What in the world am I doing?

Hey folks, This is my first post. I have been luring for a while but with my surgery hours away (about 25) at the time I am writing this I decided it was time to get involved. I keep asking myself, "are you crazy?" I feel crazy for questing myself and crazy that I am going to put myself thru this and crazy for doubting my decision. Over the last few days I wake up several times at night and my first thought is, "are you really doing this?" I haven't been able to express to those close to me just how frightening this is. Did every one else experience last minute doubt and terror? I always seem to make bad decision and this is such a huge (no pun intended) life altering thing I don't want to end up regretting my choice! -Lostfan

-Lostfan

Welcome to the NC boards and NO you are not crazy for saving your life.I know many of us here were scared right before surgery. I know I sure was. A few hours before my surgery I had a peacfulness come over me and when that happened I knew I was doing the right thing to save my life. I tell people when you make the choice to have wls you are willing to do what ever it takes to make it work. In other words you should want it more than anything you have ever wanted before and are willing to except some changes in eatting habits. I wish you all the best with your surgery and look forward to seeing you on the bench with us.                                    Annie

It is quite normal to feel scared and doubtful. You may even very well mourn the loss of your friend..... food. After all, aren't you two connected and bonded together? I know I was and I did mourn for a bit, but I am 11 months out and feel the best I have felt in years and have come to form a new friendship with my friend. Your relationship with food will change and if you really think about it...your friend has been somewhat your foe as well.  Try not to agonize over this decision. I know easier said than done.....lol. The first couple of months are tough but they do pass and become a distant memeory and you will eventually be at ease with your new lifesyle and your new anatomy. I kind of equate it to childbirth, we have to forget the pain or we wouldn't ever have children again....lol. The long term results far outweigh the short term discomfort.  Take care and remember you have a lot of people on here who have been there and felt EXACTLY what you are feeling. It is all VERY normal. We are here for ya and making room on the loser's bench for you. Lisa

Hello Joy, What you are feeling is perfectly normal.  I was sure I was gone off the deep end about a day before my surgery.  And like Annie, there in pre-op, I felt quite calm and convinced this was the right thing to do.  And no, they hadn't drugged me up!  LOL For me, this was the best thing I could have done to save my life.  I did have complications. but I would do it again in a heartbeat (as long as the complications were no serious than they were the first time!) Only you can make this decision for your health.  But what you are feeling right now is normal.. Try making a pros and cons list and write it out.  I 'll bet the pros list wins.  And it will help you relax. All the best tomorrow.  Keep us posted.  Do you have an angel who can tell us how you are doing while you are in the hospital?  Perhaps a family member can post for you?  Or you can ask someone in your area if they would do it.

My feet left the guerny and hit the floor.  Not kidding.  I don't remember who convinced me to get back on the table, but I'm glad they did. So yes, this is very normal.

Hey Joy and welcome..  It is certainly normal to question your decision or be a bit afraid.  I would never say I experienced "terror".. but I certainly did doubt my decision to have RNY.  However, let me tell you how it is from the "other side" so to speak.   In addition to losing 170 pounds and looking better..  I sleep better..  I can shop anywhere because I wear a small enough size!  I can run.. jump.. go up a flight (or several flights) of stairs without being totally worn out..  I can ride rides at the amusement parks comfortably.. I can sit in booths without fearling that I wont fit..     I can go on.. but I will just tell you that the "other side" is pretty doggone good. Look past the surgery and see what your life will be like after..  There are some hard times ahead, but I want you to know that it is all very very worth it. Jenn

Thanks Everyone, I'm sure I will be fine.  As the day goes on I'm getting a better grip on things.  No I don't have an Angel.  What is that?

I never had a "freak out" moment because I knew that this is what's right for me and I haven't regretted one single thing so far. My life is changing, as well as the lives of my husband, family and friends. I never realized what killing myself with food was doing to everyone that loved me...not just me. You'll do great! And we'll be here to cheer you on..SO O IT!!    Mare

Your emotions are soooooo normal!  I was nervous, scared, anxious and excited all at the same time.   The morning of surgery i asked what the heck i was doing and answered that i was trying to make myself healthier and lead a more active healthy life.  I am 3 1/2 months post and would do it all over again.  My prayers are with you. Good luck and God Bless you, Pam

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