very bad week and it just started

Melissa you are not a wimp.  I have gone through a lot of what you are experiencing.  It does get better.  I am now working out at the YMCA and handling food better.  I have not lost lbs recently but I am losing inches.  I just went to Goodwill and bought some smaller clothes. Just know what your triggers are and do something different to make those bad thoughts go away. Good luck and keep up the good work. Barbara