I'm Back

Hello All, It's so good to be back with you all.  I've been away for a while, struggling with personal and financial hardships that have kept me in mega overdrive and working all the over time available.  I'm tired, exhausted from it all, but dealing with things as best I can.  Even though I found myself turning to food for comfort, I remarkably haven't gained weight.  I thank God for that and for you all.  I know this would be hard for anyone (who has never had to struggle to survive and hang on by a thread not to lose everything) to understand or even comprehend; so I don't expect that level of understanding.  I  just pray that no one, none of you ever have to go through this. I know that God has tested me, and I have not waivered in my faith.  Sometimes in the midst of hardship, it is difficult to focus on being thankful for the things I have (vs. what I don't have) when my needs were so great. It's like I want so badly for folks to understand my struggle without coming across as a victim, or like I am making excuses for my situation. That, plus having to work day in and day out without worry.  All I can do is place my burden in God's hands.  It becomes His burden and I know He will lead me out of the darkness. Love yall, Diane

Diane -

I am so sorry to hear of your struggles. Do not worry about soundling like a victim or that you are making excuses for your situation. We all find ourselves in difficult situations of one sort or another at sometime in our lives. We have to do the best we can to deal with them and move forward; it sounds like that is what you are doing.

I hope that we will be seeing more of you on the board and in person. Your presence as been missed by many.

Welcoming you home,

Barb

Diane I am also so happy you are back.                                         Big Hugs to you and also to Grace and Toby,                                               Annie

Diane, As I said previously it is soo good to see you here again.  Please PM me if you would like a shoulder or an ear to borrow.  Remember that a burden shared is cut in half  (and of course a blessing shared is doubled!)

I am so glad that you are back.   I hope that you have come through the fire and are harder than steel.   I have been in that boat and down that same river.  I worked three jobs 7 days a week to keep from losing my home and feed my kids.   You are right -you have to put the burden in God's Hands and know that he will never leave you or forsake you and all of your needs will be met.     Keep coming here for support--remember a load shared is  halved in weight.  Look at how many of us are here to support you! God Bless--I' ll keep you in my prayers. 

Diane I understand 100%. I am in the same boat. We just got to ride it out and hope for the best. I have been in and out of rehab for the last 2 months. Been out of work with no pay for 2 months now. I don't know how I am going to do it. I go back to the doctor tomorrow to see if I can go back to work on Tuesday. I am going to tell the stright up.....I NEED MONEY SOMEHOW. They either got to let me go back or put me on disabuility(SP). I can't go another month without money. I have 2 kids. I am tired of this worring. I didn't want to admit it to myself that I might not be able to go back. In rehap they told me I am anorexic,bulimic, bipolar,ocd and postamutic disorder(SP) so if I have all that and can't go back I am not to proud to go and seek out what I can do for disubility,food stamps,medicade. Because I am out of money to get any help right now at all. I can't even afford all my meds. So hang in there girlfriend and we willl both get throught this. I don't pray anymore I feel like I was left behing a long time ago. I don't feel worth god helping me. Good luck and you are a very strong and one of the sweetest people I have ever talked to on here.

Amy

Don't give up on God! Times get hard and it sounds as if you are really going through some great challenges. Go seek help! Contact your local Social Services office. It is there for many like you. I know you are struggling and I cannot say I experienced your situation nor that I have been in your shoes. BUT, I can say I have been through some rough times and having my faith is what got me through them and out of them. I cannot imagine where I would be now if I would have lost my faith at the same time I was losing everything else I had durning that time in my life.