Morning friends!! Guess what...

Today marks one more weeks until my surgery day! (and my "sistah" Becky too. WhooHoo!) I have been trucking along towards today soooo excited and confident. "I'm so strong - look at me - I'm not scared of ANYTHING!" Well, my friends, that all changed about 2 o'clock this morning. I have been having trouble sleeping lately due to the excitement but this morning it was more like "I hope I can do this. I have failed at everything else I have tried to lose weight. Will I been the one to fail at this too?"  I mean, the surgery itself isn't scaring me...atleast not yet...but I can't shake those old feelings of past failures and my self-doubt that perhaps I'm not as strong as I think I am and that I can't pull this off. It's alot to go through just to fail again, I said to me. :O( I can tell by reading today's post from Cat (BarefootedBBW) and the responses to it, that I not feeling anything out of the ordinary, I'm just feeling like I might be the exception to the rule. Ya know? I am committed to this lifestyle change and all I have to do to achieve it. I just need to let go of all the past failure issues and deal with the task at hand. Time will tell. *sigh* xoxo Mare

Ok Mare I think we have all felt this way and we are so used to failing but I have news for you. You are going to win this battle. You cant help but win. Think about it the doctor is going to be making your stomach into a small pouch and by pass several feet of intestines. The amount you have been used to eatting WILL NOT  WORK. I still get excited about meal time and putting food on my plate looks like I can eat this. Nope isnt going to happen. I would of never imagined that I would measure out 1/2 cup of SF ice cream and be satisfied. Yes you may hit stalls but the scales will move. I love your positive attitude about making a life style change because that is the most important step is to agree with yourself to make this change. BTW you owe me a walk on the beach this spring when we come down for my birthday. See ya on the beach in April or early May.                                                       Annie

Love you Annie!! Walk on the beach? YOU'RE ON!!! xxoxoxoxx

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Girl Friend, I totally agree with Annie. We all have this doubt ,but believe me, it to shall pass. The only way you can fail is if you choose not  to follow what they tell you to do!!!!! It is a life time change. We are all here to encourage each other on. We Love ya Mare     

I shall gain 'cuz I'm feelin' the pain!! LOL

You will do great with this Mare. We both will!!!!!! I'm super duper excited that it's only a week away! The only thing I'm paranoid about right now is getting sick. I've been drinking Airborne hoping to boost my immune system. This morning I woke up with a fever blister on my eyelid. (yes I get them on my eyes, always have when I start to get sick). I'm using sudafed at night for my sinuses and flonase in the morning to cover the allergy part. I hope it all works. I also called my doctor this morning and begged for a prescription of valtrex to treat this fever blister. C'mon Tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be careful what you're taking, love. I had to quit lotsa OTC meds too 2 week pre-op. Better check. xoxo PS - I am still psychedervous, I guess. All the "what if's"

Psychedervous - That's an excellent word.