ot: funk

I had a big suprise when I got home yesterday. My boyfriend got me the internet and cable TV. I have a computer at home now. I can use it and not this one at work. My boyfriend thought I needed some outside interactions. I stay hid and in the dark. I even have black trash bags over all my windows at home. And my office window is covered too. I hate the outside. I hate day light. I like dark and no noises. The doctor said I am (SP) reculsive.........oh well I have a lap top and the internet at home. I was up all night downloading music. I love music. I think it is going to work and get me out of my major sever depression...........I need happy right now. I am a very,very negative person. Everything I have ever tried to do had blowed up in my freaking face so I stopped trying..........and ended up in this funkey mood........I can't wait to go home from work. 5:00 pm will never get here.............Thanks for everyones words and help. I feel today that I am going to get better. I ate at Arby's last night. Drive through of corse. I had 1/2 of a 1/2 of a turkey and swiss market fresh sand. wooooooo hooooooooo.............thank you god for letting me be happy today........................you all please pray for me.....I am not very close to god right now and I want to be.........

Amy

Amy dear, Good to know you are doing better!  I do pray for you dear.  God is a lot closer to you than you think!  He loves you as well do I.  So have a great weekend!  Eat, drink, surf the internet and be merry! Love, Diane

Thank you Diane. I am so excited. I don't get excited anymore. But girl that sure done it............I know deep down I mean deep down I know that God will bring me out of this. I just feel so alone. And I will be the one to say it..........I am scared I am going crazy.........I get so mean and that is not me.........I'm going to get the crap beat out of me one day with my smart butt mouth.......People are not scared of me now like when I was bigger. That part stinks........ Amy

That was sweet of your boyfriend.... I cant imagine not having the internet at home!!! If you love music check out pandora.com its an internet radio station that you customize... you enter some songs/artists you like and it will bring up other songs that you may or may not like... you can thumbs up or thumbs down the song and it will keep on customizing... you can make multiple radio stations as well... I love it!! I have my at work station, my party station, my lazy sunday station... its great - and FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

I can't wait to get home and get on the computer. I have not had the internet in over 3 years. I almost forgot how to do anything on it. I am sure it will come back to me. Thanks for the tip I am so there at 5:00...................

 

Amy

That's awesome, there is a whole world out there. Once you get ou tof that funk though work on getting out of the house a little :) As a 'net junkie myself I know how easy it is to make theinternet be your entire world.

I had just told my boyfriend that I didn't want a computer. That was my life before gbs. The computer. I love music so much. I would be on it like 24/7. I told my friend it would just sit there and get dusty I wouldn't touch it if he got one. Well I lied.............I love it...........stayed up about all night playing with it and feel so wonderful today. You are right there is a world out there and I gotta grab it by the horns and go for it.  amy

Man.. a Market Fresh Sandwich does sound GOOD!!  I cannot do bread AT ALL, so no sandwiches for me.  :( Glad to hear you are doing better!  Keep your chin up!

I am not suppose to have bread but I do. It is not white bread and not sticky..........I love bread but the turkey and swiss is so good. Amy

Hey Lady!!! Got those bags off those windows! Let that light shine in! Every flower needs some sunshine.