Is the end near for me!

My labs came back a few days ago. The doctor is finally worried about me. He put me on b-12 shots and 2000 units of vitamin d. I am so weak I can't walk. I cry when I have to move I hurt all over so bad. I went to see him on Monday. He said I needed to be in the hospital for 8 to 10 days getting tpn fluids. And to watch out for falls I could easy break a bone. I am trying to still work. I am going to the hospital friday afternoon if I make it till then. I have to get my daughter to school. No her brother will not come get her....I am taking care of another 15 year old girl. Because their well went dry they have no water. So I got 2 kids to look after and my dog. I gotta find time to go or I will not be here. My weight is very down. I am so depressed I can't stand it. I would be telling a lie if I say I don't think about ending it all. I am to sick to fight anymore. The doctor said when I get sick on my stomach and feel like I am going to yack even without eating. He said it is my body digesting (SP) it's own muscle. That soon I was not going to be able to get up out of my chair. Ok last night I was just sitting looking out at my dog. My finger went numb. I looked down at it. And it swells huge and turns black. I wasn't even moving it. I don't know if it is broke or just a blood vesel. But it hurts. That is another blow to the situation. I believe in all my heart when I go to the hospital that I will never come back to work or much less back home. I did all this to myself just to be skinny. I SAID I WOULD DIE TO BE SKINNY...............well god heard me and I got what I ask for. I hope to still be here for a while. My son said he is going to take care of me. And my daughter has  a family that is real good that will take her when something happens to me. If they get their well going. I love all of you and thanks for putting up with me. Please pray for me. I have just given up. I'm so tired............ lots of love amy

Dear Amy- I think I speak for most of us here on OH- GIRL- we are VERY worried about you and truly care! I think at this point , to get help, you need to surrender, turn it over to God and place your trust for your LIFE and health in the hands of your doctors. GO IN THE HOSPITAL! Choose life and not death! Cut the chase, surrender and accept the desperately needed help.  Please continue to give us updates. I will continue to lift you and your children up in prayers. Get well my friend. Sheila

Amy, I am sorry to hear this. Please don't give up, keep fighting. I have faith that you will get better. I will definetly keep you and your family in my prayers. Please keep us updated and let us know how your doing. I am truly worried about you. Hang in there and don't give up. Hugs are coming your way.........(((((HUGS)))))) Feel Better Soon!!!!!                                                              Tiffany

Amy~ You need to focus on being healthy, not skinny.  All of us know the pains of being the "fat girl" and I am sure we have all made statements like you...  but now you have to take your focus off of being skinny and focus on being healthy.  We are concerned and I urge you to keep the faith. Surrender your control on your weight and let God take over.  We are weak creatures, but he is the one who holds all of the answers for us.   Please keep us posted and be strong!

Amy - I hope you find a way to do what you need to do to make yourself well again. We love you and want you to be around whole lot longer. Will keep praying for you, friend. xoxo Mare

Amy -

Please do not wait until Friday to go to the hospital. Go today! I believe that you are tired and frightened, but you have two children who love you. You CAN NOT GIVE UP! You need to fight with all that you have. You may die if you don't go get help. Please do it now.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Wishing you all the best,

Barb

((((Amy)))) I am praying for you girl!  If you can let me know what hospital you are in I will be there in the morning. Love ya, Diane

Amy,  i will be praying for u, keep your head up and everything will be ok. Just think of the childrens, they will miss you.

Amy  Sending you prayers and positive thoughts. Please go to the hospital now and do not wait - you know in your heart the sooner you get treatment the sooner you will be on the road to recovery. Please keep us posted as to how you are doing.

Mary