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I hate to be so blunt. But I think I am fuked...........the doctor called yesterday and said my labs was the worse he has ever seen anyone's. How in the world was I up walking. I flippin tried to tell him when I was there how bad I was. Was he not listening to me. Good god. He told me to take 2000 units of vitamin D...and I have to give myself vitamin b12 shots 2 times a week. And if I wanted to go to the hospital I can. No I don't want to go to the hospital for a few days. They can't do anything I can't do at my work or home. I work in a health clinic. So I did my shot last night. Ready for that bad boy to kick in and work. I can't see very well. Feels like I am under water. Oh well enough of my *****ing. Hope you all have a wonderful day. And hope you all are doing well. I am still hanging on to 101 lbs. amy

Good morning Amy, I'm glad the doctor finally realized that you need serious help.  Please do what he says and try to get as much nourishment as you can so you will get stronger.   I'm praying for you girl.  Hang in there, you WILL get better! God bless, Alice

thank you so much.

Amy, What happend to you coming to Chapel Hill? Diane and I are more than happy to help you if you can get here.                                             Annie

my doctor will not put me out of work but for a few days. He don't think I need it. I was so excited to think I was going to get help. Every thing I try to do seems like it blows up in my face! I would love to meet you and Diane you all have been so very good to me. I will see if the shots help. If not I will go on my own. Thanks for caring.

amy

Amy, Keep us informed and yes we do care.                                           Annie

Hey Amy,  Glad to know that you are holding on to the 101lbs.  That is really awesome.  Listen I think you need to change docotrs.  Come up to Charlotte or at least get one out of Albermarle.  My moms doctors are there and I can't stand it.  I want here to go to Monroe or Charlotte and get the help she needs but she is so afraid to hardly leave the house........  But that is another subject.  But please know that if you come up here to Charlotte you will get the best treatment.  We have wonderful doctors up here, I think anywhere is better than Albermarle.  You are still in my prayers  .  LOL   Dana

Thank you so much. Do you know if they have any eating disorder hospitals in Charlotte. I couldn't find one. Dr. Melkonian did my gbs. He gave up on me over 1 year ago. He said all my problems should be taken care of by my pcp. When I go see him he tells me to go see the doctor who done my gbs. Dr. M said he couldn't do nothing but undo my gbs. And I said no. It's not all from the gbs. It is alot in my head. The anorexia and bulimic. I have not made myself puke in a pretty good while now. But I still want eat. I dump on every thing. So to me it is just not worth eating and getting sick. Every thing in this world that is food makes me dump. I can't drink the shakes I can't do milk. All I do is drink coffee and water. I go days and days without eating. I just can't stand being that sick after I eat. My heart races my breathing gets short and fast. I have lots and lots of spit in my mouth that I can't swallow all of it so I start drewling at the mouth like a baby. I hate for people to see me that way. So I don't eat at work. I have just messed myself up. I know I did it to myself and I just gotta find a way to eat and not dump. I wish I could go the rest of my life without eating. I can just think of sugar or food and feel like I am going to dump just thinking of it. When I smell food it is the same way. Girl I just don't know. I am just so tired. So very very tired. Hope you are doing well. And Albemarle hospital sucks out loud.  amy