Struggling. . .

Donna, I am sorry you are having such a rough time right now. Why don't you call Jeff Smith? It might help to go talk to him. I will be praying for things to get better for you. Beth

Donna,            I know exactly what you mean. Ever since I started the "program" things have gone downhill for me too. I don't know how you feel, but I think its Satan. I know that sounds funny, but anytime I start doin somethin to improve myself, bad things start to happen...it's not God thats doin it, so maybe its Satan. When it happens, I know that I'm doin somethin right though. If I wasn't, life would be peachy...as strange as it sounds. Just try to hang in there. Take it a day at a time... you're in my thoughts and prayers. :) Shelly

Donna, If you haven't talked to Jeff yet, I would. Otherwise, I want to dedicate this song to you. http://youtube.com/watch?v=v8zWb0-pCbQ Here are the lyrics Rascal Flatts - Stand Lyrics You feel like a candle in a hurricane Just like a picture with a broken frame Alone and helpless like you've lost your fight But you'll be alright You'll be alright Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand Then you stand Life's like a novel with the end ripped out The edge of a canyon with only one way down Take what you're given before its gone Start holding on, keep holding on Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand (then you stand) Yea, then you stand (then you stand) Everytime you get up And get back in the race One more small piece of you Starts to fall into place, yea Ooohhh Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of You might bend, till you break Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off Then you stand (then you stand) Then you stand (then you stand) Yea, then you stand (then you stand) Yea (then you stand) Ohhh (then you stand) Ohhh (then you stand) Ohhh (then you stand) Ohhh (then you stand) Then you stand