I freaking did it

I get so many flames when I post. But guess what? I am to happy to care. 3 weeks ago I promised my 2 kids ages 21 and 16. That I would try to gain some weight. In 3 weeks.................working hard on it and trying to eat every thing in sight I did it..................I have gained 15 lbs............I am now up to 105. I am anorexic and bulimic and have come a long way. I don't know if it is the meds or if it is from all the prayers you all did for me. But something happen. I look ok. People keep telling I look good. I look the best I ever have. I am hoping I will be out of kid clothing and get some grownup clothes. So I want get called names. This is the first time in 2 years and 3 months that I have been able to go and walk 2 miles. I have more energy. I feel the best I have in over 2 years. I just hope I can stop eating and not gain back to much. That part worries me. I want to stay at 105. Not under or over. I am so happy. I just can't tell you how happy I am. I don't think I am going to die now. Thank all of you that has been so nice and helping me. I would have gave up a long time ago. Hope you all have a good weekend. I know I am.......(so happy I am crying my eyes out)  Lots of love to all Amy Jo

Amy Jo, I havent posted to you before but thought I'd be the first to say congrats on gaining some weight.  I know you're going to get more negative stuff again, but just wanted to say that I think it's great you are feeling better, you're giving your body some vitamins and nutrients to run on.  Try to get in as much protein as you can to keep up your strength.  Stop worrying about maintaining 105 and about gaining it all back, it's not gonna' happen.  Do you think it's possible to maybe aim for just another 5 lbs by Halloween?  I bet dollars to donuts you would feel even better then!  Think about it girl!!  Hang in there and stay tough, but don't let that mind take over again! Nancy

THANK YOU SO MUCH. I FEEL SO HAPPY. I AM GOING TO DO GOOD THIS TIME AROUND.  AMY

Thats great Amy Jo, Keep in focas that you want to look and feel healthy. When your energy is low life can look and feel pretty bleak. Your doing a great job.                                       Annie

THERE FOR A WHILE I THOUGHT LOOKS WAS MORE THAN HELATH. NO WONDER I GOT SO SICK. THINKINK LIKE THAT. THANKS FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME. I LOVE ALL OF YOU. AMY

Congratulations on reaching your goal! I can feel the happiness comming out of your post and hope you continue to feel as great as you do today! I would take this post, print it out and put it where you see it everyday... its a great accomplishment! Congrats!

SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD IDEA. I FEEL SO GOOD. I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD FEEL THIS GOOD. IT TOOK 2 YEARS BUT IT IS WORTH IT.  GOOD LUCK TOMORROW AT THE WALK.  AMY

Hey!  I am so proud of you.  I knew you could do it.  Don't worry too much about gaining.  It is good that you are walking.  Just keep doing some exercise and make sure you get the calories your body needs to have energy.  I am excited, I have never read a post where you were so positive.  Keep up the good work!  It is really great to hear good news from you.  I was worried about you!

Thank you. I am sittling here at my desk all smiles. Not much has made me smile for a while. Now I can't stop!!!!!!!! The doctor told me when I said I was scared I would get big again, he said he didn't think it would ever happen. But I am going to eat what I am suppose to. I will not skip meals. I feel like I got a second chance with life and my kids. Thank you for being there for me.

amy

Amy -

I'm so glad that you are taking care of yourself and that you are feeling better ... physically and emotionally. You sound sooooo good! Keep up the good work.

All the best in your journey to a healthier you,

Barb