Repost from RNY board: It's me again...

Hey all, I hope everyone is having a good night tonight.. I just have empty time right now and I was just thinking of the future...  I think I am terrified of being smaller.  I mean I have been big all my life, whether it was as a child or teenager or young adult and now a grown woman.  This is all I know.  I have a fear of what the unknown may bring.  Has anyone had these thoughts or is this just me?  I should be looking forward to being healthy and I really am, but these thoughts having been in my head all day... Please help me out with your thoughts on this.. Thank you from a scared pre op... I just finished month 3 weigh in by the way...

Hugs to you. I think it's so normal to worry about the future. I mean even if you feel the same inside, people are going to treat you differently and the relationship you had with a lifelong "friend" (food) is going to change. You have to grieve those changes. I can so relate. I did not grow up heavy, but have been so for enough years. It's going to be a change. I'm ready for it, but I have my fears. I've been journaling and reading alot. I guess I would say don't fear your feelings. They are so normal. Come here for support when you can and if you're not doing it already a journal is a great tool. Good luck!

The biggest change Ive had post-op... is feeling normal... I feel like everybody else.. I can do what I want and not have to worry about things like fitting in a chair or being able to physically handle whatever it was I was doing. My mind is no longer constantly focused on food so I can put my energy towards something else.  The unknown is scary... but really think of it more in the terms above... things really arnt much different when you are smaller - some things are just easier!

Thank you both Jennifer and Goat... I just had alot of idle time yesterday and my mind just went fast forward and it just really scared me, but when you put it in terms like that I do understand what you are saying and am so looking forward to the future and the changes the surgery will bring... HELLO EVERYONE