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You are right most people don't care about people's feelings. I have come a long way from lashing out at people. Thanks for the prozac. But I am at the point I am going to start going for the throat again. Without the prozac I don't just try to hurt someone's feelings I go for the throat and hurt more than  their feelings. I can go deep and I am trying so freaking hard not to do that again. Like I said I could cut down overweight people that say things about me being skinny. Hell I had a chinese make fun of me at the chinese restraunt last night. But I had a bad hurtful comment for her. And she left me freaking alone. See I don't like being the mean one. But I guess I will have to bring the old me back and start defending myself again. I wish I could go in my trailer and never come out again and let the world see me......................................I am not the skinnest woman in the world. or even in my samll ass town...........I just don't know what the hell. Diane I like you so much you are so nice. I wish I knew you. You just seem to understand. I wish I was more like you. I get jealous of you some time. But in a nice way lol...........thanks for always being there for me. I hope I can meet you one day. God bless you. amy

Hey Amy,      To all those people and their rude comments about being a crackhead? I say "F*** 'Em!"             Pardon my crude language, but if they can be ignorant enough to make comments like that not knowing you or what your situation might be, that's all I'd have to say to them.      What ever happened to the old saying "If you don't have anything nice to say...don't say anything?" I know my parents weren't the only ones who taught it!      Don't let the losers get you down, honey! Mare

Thank you so much. You made me feel so much better. Sometime I just don't even want to hold my head up for people to see me. Will people ever be happy with my weight. I went from fat comments to crack head comments. Or do you have cancer. OR the biggie do you have HIV.................That one really ****** me off and I would love to beat the **** out of people that ask me that. I work in a health care place. LOL we talk about nutrition...........and most of them are over weight. I know they don't know I had gbs. But still they don't have to be rude. I can't say anything back mean........I would get fired. They even ask me out loud in the lobby full if I am anorexic.........I am not allowed to talk about my health to our clients. I shake my head no and walk on. And I am thinking hell yeah I am and bulimic too.........................I don't know why I care what people think of me............Sorry I wrote so much to ya........ Amy                ps I love your way of thinking

Hi Amy!  Sorry to hear that you are still dealing with the ignorant comments.  Let me share with you.  I have a friend that had WLS.  She lost a lot of weight.  People started ignoring her and wispering about her.  Some of our guy friends wouldn't even talk to her.  We found out when the rumor got to me that someone was spreading the rumor that she had Aids.  It was one of our "friends" who started the rumor.  It was jealousy!  Take care of yourself.  You will always have to put up with ignorance.  If not your weight, it will be about something else.  There are some people in the world that have to put others down to make themselves feel better.  Just let it roll off your back.  Don't cuss nobody out and get fired!  hahahahaa That won't be good. 

That old saying, " If it looks like a duck , walks like a duck...."
Honey---your photos say SO much. You are sick, you look sick, you MUST GET HELP.
The fact that your weight is very much below normal is putting your very life in danger.
You've gone from one extreme to another with eating disorders. From Obesity to Anorexia.
Your manner of dress also says things about you, that you really don't want said. A 43 yr old woman CAN dress comfortably, in jeans and shirt. When you dress like a "crack head floozy" then you end up sending a message to those that see you.
If you don't want the comments, then GET HELP---check yourself into a psychiatric hospital---cause your eating disorder screams PSYCHIATRIC at this point. NO, I am not a doctor---- nor do I pretend to be one, but you need help.... lots of inpatient help.
You have recognized that you have a problem---but your responses are combative to most all that have suggested help--so you must not really want it after all.
Sad......very sad. I hope you live long enough to see your daughter's 18th birthday----but at this point, I wonder if you will
WHO will care for her if you die? Your son? In his apartment complex that people ask you if you will trade sex for crack??
Is THAT where you want her to grow up?
I hope you have a last will and testament.....if not, get one drawn up soon.
Trying to scare you? No, just give you a massive reality check.
It's time to get real.... You are on death's doorstep, and knocking on the door......

maybe someone will soon open the door I am knocking on! 

ETA ----I see Gigi23 has blocked me.....glad she took my advice....she really did need it.

Now--on to my original post
HONEY---to use a "southern" term ----I shall post WHERE ever I want, WHEN EVER I WANT AND HOW I WANT

Not one thing I said was in violation of the Terms of Service that we all agreed upon when we signed up.

Please do NOT PRAY FOR ME---I do NOT want or am in need of your pathetic prayers that are obviously FALSE;

I have followed Amy's plight for a while now-----THIS is the internet.... it is an open forum.

IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY___

THEN BLOCK ME!!!!;

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Hi Amy, How are you doing?  I have been very worried about you.  Did you call any of those numbers I sent you?  Please don't get caught up in this meaningless stuff.  Pick up the phone and work on YOU.  That is all you need to do right now.  Stop tiptoeing around the big purple elephant sitting in the middle of your living room.  It's time for you to look at you and get some help. You can do it.  I can send you that info again. Amy...I really don't want to believe that everyone is right in what they are saying.  That you really don't want to stop what you are doing.  That you are only posting here for the drama.  Is this true?   I just want to see you change your life around.  believe me...if I could do it.  So can you.