Hey guys ~ I guess it's time for an update. . .

. . . on my crazy life!!  Where to begin ~ well, hubby and I are separated (again!).  The issues we had before he got sick are still there (surprise, surprise) and just too insurmountable with all this added stress of his illness so we have decided it's best to be apart.  This time it will be permanent.  I will still be there for him as a friend but I cannot give him more.  He understands that and is o.k. with our decision to end our marriage.  As far as his cancer, they have decided to go ahead with the colon and rectum removal first instead of chemo due to the fact that he is in quite a bit of pain and discomfort and they feel that they cannot wait any longer because of this.  He is scheduled for an iron transfusion today or tomorrow due to extremely low iron levels and surgery will probably be scheduled for week after next.  Chemo will follow in 6-8 weeks.  Please continue to keep him in your thoughts and prayers.  I tell him about you guys all the time and he appreciates you all as much as I do. As far as my weight loss goes, I am down 54 lbs as of this morning.  I am not doing well with my protein, water,  or vitamins and food just absolutely sickens me right now.  I have to get my butt back in the groove of things before I make myself sick and I seem to be having such a hard time doing that right now.  I will get myself back on track though because I am too scared of what will happen to my health if I don't. I am trying to back up and read and catch up on all the posts that I have missed in the past couple of weeks.  I think of you all often and miss each of you.  Hopefully, my life will settle down some now and I will be able to be more active here on the boards.  I need that to help keep me on track! Sorry to have rambled on for so long.  There's a lot more going on in my life than anyone knows but I just try to deal with things on a day to day basis and remember that God does not give us more than we can handle at one time but sometimes I have to wonder about His sense of humor!! Hugs, Donna

Congrats on being down 54 lbs. and having alot to deal with. Now you can get back on track. We don't want anything to happen to you. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Yes, God does have a sence of humor. That's what keeps us going. Maureen

Mornin Donna, Sounds like your life is a roller coaster right now!  I will pray that things level out and keep on moving forward.  CONGRATULATIONS on your 54 lb. weight loss!  That is awesome and I know feels great.  Please, please take your vitamins and protein.  We need you well as does your family and friends! Will you be at the Raleigh get together Sat. Sep 8th at Perkins on Capital Blvd?  I sure would love to me you! I hope you have some plans this holiday weekend for rest and relaxation!  I'll be in my sewing room having fun!  I'll be thinking happy thoughts of you! Hugs, Diane

Donna, Thanks again for updating us on your husband.  I am sorry the marriage cannot be saved, but at least this way you both know you gave it your best effort.  Maybe the split will be a bit eaiser on your mind knowing you tried again. Congrats on your weight loss, try to stay healthy.  Just think how you would have handled all of this pre surgery!  (I would be stuffing my face.) Don't appoligize for ranbling, that is what we are here for.  Lori

Good morning.  Yay!   54 lbs.    You need to take care of yourself!     Don't let the problems get you sick!  That is good that you and your husband are able to be friends.  It is nice of you to support him as a friend too.  Just take things one day at a time, and take time to care for yourself.  You will be no good to anyone if you are sick.  And you won't be able to enjoy your new body and all the things you can do now that you couldn't before.

Good to hear from you again Donna! That is a big weight loss for such a short time!  Congratulations!  But do be SURE you are at least getting in all your fluids.  I know that I am also having a problem getting in all the food and protein (and vitamins) I need.  And food often nauseates me, particularly when I am stressed.  And it sure sounds as though you are having more than your share of stress right now.  I sure am sorry for all your difficulties right now.  Try to keep the focus on yourself right now and you will find that you have a lighter load and still plenty to deal with. I will keep you in my prayers.  Please keep us posted.  A burden shared is cut in half.  A joy shared is doubled.

Donna
Thanks for updating us CONGRATULATIONS on your weight loss!!! I know its a very stressful time for you right now but try to take it one day at a time good luck to you sweetie... sending some positive vibes your way!!

Darcie

Donna -

Thanks so much for the update. While I'm sorry that your marriage to your husband won't work out, I'm sure that you both know that you've done the best you can and the fact that you are able to stay friends is a testament to the fact that you love one another, even if you can't be married to one another.

Your weight loss is incredible ... congratulations on all 54 successes! It takes a while to ramp up so that you are getting all of the protien. If you aren't doing it already, please consider using something like fitday.com to track your intake ... it may help you see when you need to step up the protien. If you don't like sipping plain water, consider some Crystal Light. It's been a real help to me. I drink much more when it's flavored than when it's plain.

Please don't worry about rambling ... we all do it and as Lori said that's what we're here for.

Take care of yourself.

Keeping you and yours in thought and prayer,

Barb

Donna, So happy to hear from you again. Wow! 54 pounds is great. I know you must be so thrilled with that. I still haven't heard from Susan wheither or not she has sent all my info in to the insurance. She told me at the last support meeting that I didn't need to do anything else until I heard from her. Waiting is hard. I wish things would hurry up. Beth

Donna~ I am glad you are at peace and getting skinny!!  54 pounds is AWESOME!! I think we all struggle wti protein.. I do much better with vitamins and water. Take care and keep your chin up girl! Jen