Entering the Onderful realm of Onderland!

Today I weighed for the first time in about a week  and realized that I was firmly standing in Onderland. Last week, the scale flirted with me, so I wasn't sure that this was the REAL thing. I could hardly believe it, so I stepped off the scale, took a deep breath and stepped back on. I was steeling myself for another false reading, to see that I really hadn't quite made it there. But no, when I stepped onto the scale again, it might as well have had a flashing light and music ... just like Disneyland's Mainstreet ..., it clearly said 198. 198! I have checked it over and over ... it still says 198.

I see the number 198.  It's one I wasn't sure I would ever see again. I have tears rolling down my face. I haven't broken 200 since my brother died almost 20 years ago ... and to be honest, that was just a minor "blip" on the radar.

My head knows that the surgery works. Now, I need to get my heart to see and feel that it's working. I need to believe that I really am getting smaller and healthier.

My too big clothes know that the surgery works...My smaller clothes sort of know that the surgery works. I see the smaller sizes of the clothes that now fit, but it's hard to believe that they fit. ...Misses size 14's I haven't worn 14's since high school.

But when I look at old photos of me and I look at me know, I'm having a little trouble seeing it. I went to a scrapbooking event last-night with people I had never met. They could see it. They couldn't believe that the old photos were photos of me. They thought it must have been an older sister. They also couldn't believe that I have to loose another 65 lbs! I do, and with this surgery, stamina and God's grace, I will.

((((Barb))))

Congratulations and welcome to Onederland!!! We weigh the same LOL.  Now if you would only share the 6 inches in height you have over me!  I would be happy to stand 5'3".  Congratulations on your success!  Getting under 200 lbs was a major hurdle for us.  Now it is time to set our sites on a new and more exciting goal:  150 lbs!

This is not a race! ;)  I will be happy for you if you get there months before me.  Actually I did start out months before you LOL!  But it's ok.  It's all good.  And girlfriend, we are Getting There!!!!  Just for fun this morning I put on one of my "big shirts" and wow, is it BIG!! LOL

God is good to us Barb.  Life is good!  Many many more blessings to you!

Diane

Diane -

I'm delighted to share this with you. I know that you had a much longer road to travel to arrive here .... I know it's not a race .... I know that we all do the work we need to do to get to where we need to be.

The next big hurdle that I'd like to jump is dropping from Obese to overweight ... I want my BMI under 30! It looks like that will take at least a couple of more months.

Wishing you all continued success as you take back your health.

(((Hugs))))

Diane -

I have been have an incredibly hard time struggling with that monster called depression lately. The "events" of the last few weeks have really been trying. I just wanted you to know that your kindness and support during the last difficult weeks have meant more than I can say.

Barb

Barb,

This is such wonderful news.

I am so happy for you.

For two days now I have been wearing a pair of jeans I got from Ellen last weekend and trying to remember when I ever wore jeans.

God is so good and I am so grateful I am doing so well and the best part is it take so little to fill me up and be satisfed.

Your doing great Barb.

                                   Annie

Annie -

What a WOW moment for you! I'm so very delighted to hear of your success. I know it really is the culmination of all of these little success that help us move towards that ultimate success of a healthier body.

Thanks so much for all of your kindness and support.

I've been having a very hard time (with depressions) lately and your kindness and support mean more than I can say.

Thanks again,

Congratulations, that must feel terrific, and you have so much to be proud of .  I give you a standing ovation!!!   

Congrats, Barbara!!!  I am at the same pre-surgery weight as you were and can't wait to get below 200 too!  Keep it up!

I'm dusting of the bench. Come sit right next to me!

b

Way to go, Barb! That must be such an amazing feeling.  Bravo, sister! Bravo! Mare