Update on my hubby
Hello all. First off, thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts. Please keep them coming. They ran many tests yesterday and late yesterday afternoon, our worst fears were confirmed. It is Stage 4 colon cancer. There are two masses that are apparently very huge and that is what is causing all the bleeding. We were told that one of the masses has almost entirely blocked the colon near the rectum opening. He will have to undergo surgery sometime in the coming week. They also saw some small to moderate spots in some lympth nodes (I know I spelled that wrong and I'm sorry ~ my mind is barely functioning now) and a couple on his liver. I tried very hard not to break down while the doctor was telling us but I was not successful. I felt very bad about this because I felt like I had let my hubby down by not being strong. As usual, he held and comforted me telling me that he would have been hurt if I hadn't broken down. He is such a good person and I don't understand why this is happening to him. I stayed with him last night at the hospital and I just had to keep touching him ~ rubbing his arm, his back, stroking his hair and his face. I truly don't know how we will get thru this or what I will do if the unthinkable happens. All the petty things in our relationship that caused us to separate now seem so insignificant. I just thank God that we have been given a second chance to restore our relationship and we have discussed that among a thousand other things in the wee hours of this morning when neither one of us could sleep. We just hold each other and cry. This is the worst time of my life. Please let your loved ones know how much you love them each and every day cause you just never know.
I am trying to keep up with my vitamins and supplements because I don't want to get sick. Eating is hard because I can't hardly force anything to go down past this constant lump in my throat. But I am trying. He keeps telling me to drink my water. Sounds just like him ~ always worrying about me instead of himself.
Well, I'm sorry to have rambled on like this. I have just stopped by the house here for a minute for a shower and a short nap and am now on my way back to the hospital and I wanted to give a quick update. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. We need them now more than ever.
Love to you all,
Donna
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Donna,
I am SO SO sorry that this is happening to you all. I have been through colo-rectal cancer with my father and I can understand where you are coming from. Unfortunately my father passed but not without a fight and there are people that survive. My dad was older and the surgery was really tough on him and he was unable to have follow-up chemo after or it would have killed him. Your husband has youth on his side. I really don't know what to say at this point. You all have been dealt a rough hand to say the least and from what you have said things are looking pretty bad. All I can do is offer my support and prayers to you, your husband and kids. How old is your husband, if I may ask? I pray that this journey will be OK ( as OK can this incidious disease can be). You are such a good person and feel sure your hubby is as well. Take care of yourself as your hubby will need you more now than ever! Love and hugs to you all.
Lisa
Donna -
I'm so sorry that this disease has entered your family. It is viscous, yet it is curable. No words I could speak could ever cure your broken heart. Be as strong as you can and realize that you to are suffering too. Take some moments here and there to let yourself release, this you need.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Know that your surrounded by love.
Wendy
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