Man I am so ashamed

Well tommorrow I go for my pre-op apt with Dr. M.  And boy is he gonna get me.....  I got on the scale today!?#*  I have noone to blame but myself.  I was down to 281 and  today........285.  When I weighed in at Dr. M's office i Jan.  I was weighing in at 283.  I am not trying to justify this by no means.....   But I have had 2 deaths in my family and you know people bring over food for the family.  And I am/was an emotional eater.  Then I had a birthday party for my partner this past weekend, and cooked her all her favorite food, had out of state guest, drikin',  went clubbin' , and everything....... I hope that this irresponsibility does not prolong my surgery.   I assume my liquid diet is to start July 31,  that will be 2 weeks before my surgery.  What is the best liquids to consume? 

I can say something good though.... I went to the gym yesterday a purchased a membership.  I know this should have been done.  And this may be selfish to say but I guess I was enjoying my last days of being "FAT".....    I apologize for all this rambling and venting.............

They won't hurt you... I seen Dr. Lowe today for my last appt and I was up 8 pounds. Thanks Geodon! Gotta love the meds. It's not selfish to enjoy knowing you won't be "FAT" much longer. Good luck with surgery.

Thank you for the kind words.  That helps.  Hope your visit went well.

Don't worry... that liquid diet will blast it off of you!  :)  I could have like broths, cream of chicken/mushroom/etc.. soup (low fat), SF jello, SF pudding, SF popscicles, SF fudgescicles, Low Fat Yougurt, Crystal Light, Non Caffienated SF drinks, Protein Shakes with Skim Milk.. and I could also have green salads with Fat Free dressing..  I am sure I left something out, but that is about all I ate.  It was not bad though.  :)

Hey Jen, Thanks for the input.  I went to see Dr. M today and he gave me a list.  I'll be joining you pretty soon.  I can't wait.  So how much weihgt have you lost so far?  Keep in touch.

I have lost 16 pounds so far.  I have been pleased.   Glad he gave you a list.  I will be jealous if you get to eat more than I did.  LOL

DrMelkonian will give you a list of what you can have on the liquid diet. It consists of 6 CIB NSA shakes a day, another 6 glasses of liquids and a few other items (light yogurt, broth).  Im sure the 4lbs wont make a difference... just get back on track and all will be well!

Thanks Jennifer K.  Yeah he gave me a list.  I hope I can be strong enough to follow thru.  I really have no choice........

Good luck to you sweetie, your back on track and focused now and Im sure you will do just fantastic

Darcie