OT: Overwhelmed

Ellen,

I hope to see you in Wilmington.  A weekend away will do you good.  Keep Well.

Diane

Ellen, You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take time for yourself. It will all work out in the way that it was meant to be. I know that  this is not real comforting for you right now but I hope that one day you will look back on this time and see why it all had to happen like it did. Hugs, Linda

I agree Linda.  I can't see it now, but I know there's a reason this had to happen.  I pray that God's will be done, no matter what that is.  Thanks for the kind words. Ellen

I am sorry to hear of  your troubles. I will pray for the healing of a broken heart. You have faith and I am sure things will fall into place for you. If you need to shout you have plenty of listeners. God Bless  Myrtis

Thanks for the prayers and kind words Myrtis.  I really appreciate the support on this board.  I am blessed to have found it. Ellen

Hey Ellen, I am sooo sorry to hear about things with your husband..... you  and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers I know your faith in God will lead you in this dark time in your life keep the faith and I ask God to give you peace in this trying time....... Vickie

Thank you Vickie.  Your prayers are very much appreciated. Ellen

Ellen, I am very sorry that you are having to go thru this terrible time.  I want to share a little of my past with you to hopefully encourage you and let you know that even though you may feel like the world is falling apart around you, brighter days are ahead.  I know this because I married for the first time at age 21 and thought I had it made.  That marriage lasted 2 years.  I felt like a complete failure but I picked myself up, dusted myself off and moved on with my life.  Shortly thereafter, I met my 2nd husband and married him at age 24.  He totally swept me off my feet.  He was charming, good looking and absolutely treated me like a queen.  I found out I was pregnant 4 weeks after we got married.  He acted like it was the best thing in the world even though he had 3 children from his previous marriage and we were already struggling financially.  So life was going great, I was finally going to be a mother (I had dreamed of this for so long!!) and I had a wonderful man by my side.  Well, that wonderful man had a secret that I didn't know about ~ he had a girlfriend and had had her since before we got married.  So in my 6th month of pregnancy, he decided to ditch me and his other 3 children and go be with her.  Talk about devastated!!!  I literally thought I was going to die.  But with God's help and with my wonderful family's support, I made it thru and had my beautiful baby boy.  I was convinced that when he saw our child, he would come running back to us.  Wrong again!!!  He has seen our son only one time in 14 years.  He has never paid one penny in child support and never sent my son even one birthday card or one Christmas present.  Again, I picked myself up, dusted myself off and moved on with my life.  Fast forward 6 years.  I met a wonderful man on the internet (I know, I know) and he treated me like gold and was so good to my son.  Well, all my son wanted was a daddy so against my better judgement, I married him.  As soon as we were married, he changed.  He wanted me and only me, not my son, not my family, just me.  We have been married for the last 7 years but we don't currently live together.  I'm not sure where our lives are going but for now, they aren't going in the same direction.  He loves me, I have no doubt about that.  We talk on the phone almost every day and he stayed with me in the hospital during my surgery but our problems are so great that I'm not sure love is enough.  So divorce number 3 is on the horizon for me.  Do I feel like a failure?  Yes, sometimes.  Am I a failure?  No, I am a survivor.  And you will be too. The point of this long and drawn out story is that I know what you are going thru.  Life sucks sometimes but there are brighter days ahead and we are strong women and will be even stronger because of these struggles.  Hang in there and if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, I've got two of the strongest ones I know.  Take care of yourself and your children.  You deserve the best ~ don't ever forget that!!   Hugs to you, Donna

Thanks for the support Donna.   I appreciate your willingness to share your story with me.  I admit, at this juncture, I do hope that this is a phase that he's going through and he'll be back.  I'm smart enough to realize that it might not happen that way.  I do feel like a failure, but i know that I'm not.  Last night wasn't fun, but the sun came up again today.  God is good! Ellen

I will pray for you, pray for peace of mind and assurance in God's will.  Put all your worries in His hands, you are His child, let him take away your burdens! Many hugs to you! Laurie