I'm Almost There! Should I be excited?

~I just felt like tellings someone that understands all this~ It has been a year that I have been trying to get our insurance to cover WLS~~ Well today I am soooo happy because,  I just found out that the Company my Husband works for is going to change their crappy ass carrier to BC/BS Of The Carolina's,  They made sure before changing carriers that WLS would be coverd, and I'm told I can start this whole process August 1st.  I'm almost afraid to get excited about this but yet it is such a Ginormous milestone that I'm just a bundle of emmotions, so I think I'll just go ahead and be excited for now because I really do feel like I'm almost there! 

Hey Donna, I am happy for you  this is a huge milestone. Yes you should be  all over the place!!!Congras take care and God bless. God is always blessings us. Vickie

That's GREAT news!

What good news that you will be able to pursue this surgery if that's what you feel is right for you.  As far as excited, everyone's a bit different.  I totally relate to what you're saying about being a "bundle of emotions".  At your stage, it's hard to be excited knowing what's in front of you.  As you get closer, you might be excited, nervous, scared, confident, ashamed, or any or all of the above.  As I got closer, a lot of people would ask me if I was excited.  I would have to say no, I wasn't.  I was confident it was the right course of action, I was happy that it was going to happen, but I had a lot of negative emotions too.  I was nervous that something would happen at the last minute and I wouldn't be able to have it done.  More interesting for me was the shame and guilt I felt.  I was about to embark on a journey that maybe, if I'd done better, I wouldn't ever have had to do.  I was remorseful and guilty for what I was about to put my family through.  I was scared of the hospital bills because I didn't have a clear idea of what the final cost would be. I talked with my DH and expressed these things to him and he was very supportive.  He helped alleviate a lot of my concerns.  But I admit that it wasn't all wonderful excitement and happiness for me as I approached my date.  Having said all that, I can tell you that I am very glad I had this done.  My fears were unfounded as my surgery was uncomplicated and recovery was quick.  I am up to 3 miles walking and around 65 pounds down at 11 weeks post op.  I also find that I no longer feel the shame that I did pre-op.  I understand that my past "is what it is" and I have released that part of me.  I would do it again.  This might have been more information than what you were looking for, but I guess your post just got me thinking.  Whatever you're feeling right now is okay.  You'll feel a lot in the next few months and will run the gamut from excitement, apathy, fear, etc.  Side with the positive as much as possible, I find that it serves me better to focus on those things. Good luck with the approval process and take care. Ellen

Donna that is GREAT news! I am so happy to hear that for you, I know it's been a struggle for you and what a way end that whole thing!!!! Hope it all works out for you come Aug!

Good Morning! I just wanted to thank you all for your support and well wishes as I take this journey head on.  I hope soon to be sitting next you all of you on the LOOSERS BENCH!  Thanks again.