What was/is your biggest fear...

I think that's a fear for all of us. That's why we all have to stick together! Stay strong.

OK, Now I have a real fear! I had my upper endoscopy this am. Getting ready for the Dr. to come in so the nurse says "we're going to give you your sleepy medicine now". Nurse gives me the meds through the IV and says OK you should fall asleep now, NOT SLEEPING! So she gives me some more and I zonk out . Next thing I know I'm gagging on the scope and I can kinda remember them saying OK stay still. They must have given me MORE "sleepy" medicine because then I don't remember the rest. I was out the whole day! I mean zonked, it's 11:30pm now and I'm finally feeling awake which sucks cuz' now I will defiantly be up ALL nite. OK, so here's my biggest fear for surgery. Not being totally sedated and being able to feel and hear everything but them not knowing because I can't move or react. I'm telling you, today's got me scared now! I've heard of that happening, people going through a whole surgery feeling everything! Wendy

Although I'm going to have Lapband, My biggest fear is that I will loose my determination and start eating through the band. I am a sweet junkfood addict and I have no self-control. Before anyone start****ting all the kitchen utensils in the drawer- elimnate the sharp objects first!! I had a breast reduction 2 years back and I was worried about waking up beforehand and I didn't, so I'm pretty ok with that now.

I also have a HORRIBLE sweet tooth! But I think when you losing and feeling good you'll (me) gain more control. You know the saying - "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels". And anyhow, we're allowed some guilty pleasures! Wendy

Biggest Fear(s) . . . Not waking up (However, I remember that I have a good surgeon and that I'm considered a low risk candidate.) Complications during and/or after surgery - (Again, I'm doing all I can to minimize risks with a good Dr., WLS team, etc.) Not losing "enough" - (That's up to me. I think that getting the weight off is going to be 30% in my head and 60% as a result of the surgery, early on. As the weight loss slows I think it will be more head than surgery to take off the weight to a health -- hopefully trim weight. I have control of it and I can decide to do what needs to be done to make it happen.) Gaining back the weight- (That's up to me, too. I think that keeping the weight off is going to be 75% in my head and possibly some as a result of the surgery. I am networking, going to support groups, getting counseling re: my issues with food. I am gathering the tools I need to successfully maintain the loss. I will use them.) Dumping - Try to avoid those things known to cause dumping. Live and learn. Looking like a hound dog (too much skin) - I'm recently post-menapausal and so I'm already experiencing some unwanted skin changes. I really dread the scars of my obesity ... the extra skin ... but, I'd rather have them and live longer and better. I'll just have to wait and see what will happen. All that said, I'm still going ahead with the surgery.

You seem to know what your strengths and weakness are... I have faith you will kick it's butt to the max and win this battle! Good luck.