What was/is your biggest fear...
That wasn't my biggest fear because I didn't know that was going to happen and it did! I got a wicked case of diarrhea & started my period my first night home. My butt was so raw Luckily, I have the shower attachment on a hose. That and vaseline finally did the trick. My sweet husband offered to help but I had too much pride...or shame...whatever.
My only fear was having complications and having to have an open RNY or of course, not waking up at all. I did have some complications and stayed in ICU the first night and day but it's been all good since the initial recovery time.
I'd do it again today.