Feeling stressed and not eating over it

Hi to you all.I am awaiting my insurance now to approve me and trying to get alll I need to do before surgery.Donating my blood,Did that today.Follow up with my sleep apnea Dr and getting my hair permed etc.I am going to the gym and now my boyfriend gave me the money for a personal trainer.I guess I am feeling anxious and happy and excited all at the same time but not eating over it.Trying just to figure out why I am feeling so stressed and dealing with the feelings and talking to my support person about it helps.Things are happening so fast for me and I am so happy but that scares me as usually the floor falls out.I know it is silly but they are my feelings and for the first time in 56 yrs.I am dealing with it without eating or drinking over it.Feels weird but in the end I am the winner.I just didn't know if any one else feels it and also sort of mourining the old me and saying good bye.I am cleaning out my life and that takes the role of cleaning out my home .I feel sort of cleansed.It is a good feeling and long overdue.Thanks for any advise you can give.I have lost over 25 lbs so far in 2 mo.I needed to inorder to have surgery at my hospital. Dee

Hey Dee Dee.....It is a big decission that we are making. It takes a lot of strenght and worry...You will be fine...you will be so happy when you see the pounds falling off, and you'll feel so much better physically. Wow, a personal trainer...lucky you....Just remember to breath, you've done the hard part, making the decission. Just put it in God's hands and all will be allright.....Take care.... Sandi

I'm so proud of you!