Honesty

I finally decided today was the day to add a ticker. I have been so embarassed and ashamed of how high my weight got before having this surgery but today I decided to be brave and post this. I hope it might help someone who is where I was. I'm proud of my decision and proud of myself and part of my healing process is learning how to let go of my fear and shame. JILLIAN

Congratulations for getting over your fear... Never be ashamed of yourself, especially on here.. we are all in the same boat.. You should be proud you are doing AMAZING!! Congrats..

Thank you Lesley. It's just hard when you've never told anyone about your secret shame and It's a shame I have carried with me my whole life, starting when I was quite young.  The first person I told was my husband, he came with me to my first apt with Dr B and I decided that day that he should know. I recently told one of my sisters  and my mother and that was hard but  not as hard as it would haved been in the past or pre surgery. I just decided today to start being honest with myself and everyone else. It is still felling scarry to me and I'm feeling vulnerable even as I type this. To be honest I did a ticker about a month ago and about a minute later I deleated it. I guess I wasn't ready then but I felt ready today. I hope that this helps pepole understand me and my journey a little bit better and maybe it will help someone who is where I was when I started this journey.

Don't be embarrassed it's only a number and that number is getting smaller every day so you should be proud of yourself it not easy to loose weight some people don't under stand that it's not only effects your body but your mind too. so doing this today is a great step in healing process to a new healthy lifestyle in body and mind

Nobody here judges you by a number!  We all feel the same shame about our numbers... But never realizing that others aren't seeing us that way. The more you let it out, the more you will realize that you don't need to be ashamed anymore!  Great job letting it out and starting to heal that thinking!

I am so proud and so happy for you Jill.  You my sister are an inspiration for me. Don't stress one minute more about the starting number, focus on the finish line because that is what is important now!!!

NEVER feel ashamed. This board is all about support and helping each other. The ticker doesn't just show where you have been - most importantly - it shows how far you have come. You are doing great girl! Congrats!!!!!   

Everyone is right! Don't be ashamed, we are all here for the same reason, doesn't matter what the start number is.  You are doing great, keep up the great work!

^What she said :)

i agree with all these responses. it was very brave for you to do. i also know how you feel. starting my journey at 452pds. but you will soon get to a point (maybe) like me. i will gladly tell anyone who listens that i started there and now an stuck for 3/4 a year where i am now lol.  i am happy to be alive and able to do more than i ever could.  though it is embarrassing, you will soon embrace it! we all understand in one way or another, how you feel. we are all a "family" here.

Happy monday and congrats on your loss so far :)