Not so good news

Hi everyone. Got a call today from the hospital just before noon....Surgery has been canceled. They found mold in the walls of all surgery rooms...So all rooms are closed but 1 for cancer patients. So far they say for 2 weeks but maybe longer. This means all this time on shakes and bars were for nothing. Yes I know they can't help it but anyone who has done it knows it isn't easy. Now I can't restart it..if there isn't another way around it I'm not sure I will do it all over. I *****ed and cried more then enough to my family I don't want to put them through it again.

Denise

Denise

I havnt been real active on the site lately but your post touched my heart.  I truly understand your frustration.  My start weight was 436 lbs.   I was required to do shakes for a month prior to surgery...It was awful but I did it.  I received a call from Montreal 3 days before I was leaving to have the surgery.  I was devastated.  I hypervenilated and sobbed uncontrollably.  I have never felt such dissappointment.  The reason they postponed it was because I was having my surgery in a private hospital and the anestegelogist( I know I spelt that wrong lol) was not comfortable putting me under in a hospital that did not have a crash team...well that scared the **** of me then.  The soonest they could get me in was 6 weeks later.  Oh my god, 6 weeks, I barely survived 4 weeks....I didnt know what to do then.  I decided to have 2 shakes a day ( only have a package at a time and a reasonable supper)  then 2 weeks prior I just did 4 shakes a day ( only 2 packages split per day).  I didnt want to buy any more optifast, so I counted what I had left and budgeted it out accordingly.  Even with all that optifast my liver was still very large, it was scratched but no real damage.  You will figure it out...dont give up.  I am down to 341 lbs now since Feb 1st.  I have a long way to go but it is worth it...you deserve this Denise. Do not give up!
I'll be thinking of you. Message me if you need anything.  I know Beth as well and we can help you through this anyway you need.   

Hi Angela! Thanks hun your a sweetheart! I appreciate the kind words I really do!! Like I told Kitty_mom I don't see how I could do this! Thanks again!!!!
Denise

That so beyond SUCKS! 
That being said, you are on the shakes to make a high risk procedure safer. Enough said.

Hi kitty_mom. Don't mean to sound like a *****! Enough said for you or even others but we are all differant!! Some can do it everyday others can't. I know its safer I understand that. But also its not just the fact that I have to do it again its that my husband decided to go back to school and we don't have the cash for this. My family paid for it the first time around and they can't do it again already asked so in this case its more like I don't want to give up but I might have to!! It's breaking my heart to say that I waited over 5 years.
Denise

Oh gosh, I guess I sounded *****y. I just meant that you don't need a lecture on the right or wrong choice, but as long as you take into account  that the purpose of the diet is to shrink your liver to make the surgery safer, the decision is yours to make. You can use Slimm Fast. As long as you don't go crazy with your diet (just don't use me as a role model there), the benefits to your liver should hang on the benefit of the liquid diet.These no doubt, if this happened to me, I would be singing the blues.
I think you could substitute the the first stage of the Akins diet too. The two diets work by forcing your body to burn fat by depleting your card stores. I would leave out the bacon & high fat stuff.

You are absolutely right Denise...everyone is different.  I was not perfect on the shakes by any means, we are food addicts, we will have relapses.  I found myself one day when I was left alone, sneakily eating a whole bottle of spaghetti sauce with a spoon....why spaghetti sauce you ask, it was there.  Gave me the ****s for days and I relized it was about way more than will power, like people like to say.  I wonder if you discuss your situation with the receptionist at the hospital if there is a way they can assist with the cost?  How much would it be?  Maybe friends and family would help out again.  It's not worth giving up yet girlie.  You so deserve this chance at living life.  I know there are people that want this for you....I havnt even met you and I want to help. 

ohhhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooooo.

Okay that really sucks. It sucks your surgery was postponed. It sucks you have to re-do the liquid diet!!!! SOoooo sorry for you.

You'll get over it though. Just cry it out and think of the reasons why you need to do this again. It's hard and it sucks i know but you can do it again.

believe in yourself.

I bet if we all pulled together, that most of us have some extra optifast or meditrim around....it doesnt matter what brand as long as it gets some weight off before surgery.  I bet we could help you out with the shake supply if you are up to it again.  What does everyine think? Let's help Denise!

Is the Optifast or meditrim super expensive? Is Dr. Beau completely strict with what liquids are used during the liquid diet?

Off topic here, but mold in the surgery rooms? Yikes. I had surgery at the dumont not even a month ago!!