Hard Week

Boy, was this ever a rough week!  I don't know what happened!  I did really, really well for 2 weeks.  I ate healthy and I felt great.  I had more energy than I have had in years and I felt happier than I have felt in years.  And then last weekend hit.  It is like all the hard work I did went right down the crapper!!!  Although I did manage to stay away from the diet pepsi, I did indulge in some pizza and Easter candy.  I can't believe how quickly I got off track!  Now my depression is raging uncontrolled and I feel mentally and physically like ****!  I have been trying to figure out what the trigger was (besides life in general) and I have come to the conclusion that I have already become discouraged about the many years of waiting that lay ahead of me.  Here I am, finally deciding to do something to take control of my life and my health and now I have to wait years to do it.  It just seems so unfair!!  I know you have all done the wait too and that I should just suck it up like everyone else did but I can't help but feel discouraged.  I put my daughter to bed at 7:00 and I have been sitting here in front of my computer since then reading other people's posts and crying.  What am I going to do?  How will I ever manage to get myself back on track?

Please don't get discouraged, everything will work out and you have done the hardest thing right now and that is to change your chang your way of eating for a healthier begining and even if you slip up once in awhile and treat yourself it is not a bad thing...we all do that trust me....I was doing so well and the past few weeks I have let loose the monster inside of me and was eating anything and everything I could get my hand and mouth on....so today I started all over again and get back on track...little steps are good also, you don't have to start with a major change...like for me this morning I decided I was going to go for a walk which I hadn't done in awhile because I started slacking off big time.� I walked for about a half hour which for me was good because I was feeling it after 10 minutes or so but I kept on walking.� I came home and went into town after lunch and bought a bunch of veggies and stuff for making salads and some chicken to cook and cut up in my salads...I also decided only have some startch in the morning and lunch but not have anything startchie in the afternoon...but still have my veggies and fruits and my meat.� For me giving up potatoes and rice and bread is a huge thing for me but at least in the morning for breakfast if I want a slice of toast of something and maybe some rice for lunch I can still have some then but not after that.� I also started to write everything down today that is going into my mouth....

I know the thought of having to wait for awhile to have the surgery that you want is and can be very frustrating and yes we have all been there and still there with you waiting...but just think it will all be well worth it in the end...I didn't mean to sound so discouraging in one of the posts in regards to the years of waiting, I just wanted to let you know that we are all here for you and have been very very frustrated just like you are now but my dear please keep your chin up and don't cry you are doing great with what you are doing so far and yes there will be pot holes and obsticles in your way but if you need someone to talk to we are here for you.�

Hugs
Beth

It may only be memory for those of us lucky enough to be on the losers bench, but we losers have been there and we understand. We all gotten discouraged with the waiting. Most , if not all of us, (me for sure) have "blown" the diet even after the surgery. I didn't try to lose weight for the first 4 years of waiting because when I started we had to have an endocrinologist recommend the surgery to Medicare for approval. She was notorious for not recommending the surgery if you were having any success with diet without the surgery.  Also I didn't even consider WLS until I had lost and gained back many time. I had given up when I made the decision. I still have to start each day like it is the first day of my journey. I try to focus on the good things I have done, as opposed to where I have fallen down. I can almost always find something I have done right. If I didn't eat right, I probably went for a walk, or I may not have had sugar or too much fats and so on. Tomorrow is another day. In the past, perfectionism has been my undoing. The first time I cheated, I had failed and the diet was over. I had blown it. No more. The most I can blow is a day...at a time. Yes it is easier to be successful with the band, but I still have to make the choices and do the work, so my attitude is what keeps me going.  Having said all that, when attitude isn't enough and I get discouraged, I come here, and  I vent, ***** & complain.  Just like you did. 99% of us understand and the odd person brings up the "should haves"  and "you know better than to..." I just  take that as the voice of conscience- even the perfectionists have their role to play.

Thanks ladies. Just a quick question. Do you still need an endocrinologist to recommend surgery? Is this something I should be looking at doing so that I can have all my ducks in a row when the time comes?

No- thank God.

No thank goodness you no longer have to have a referral first from your family doctor to see an Endocrinologist, that was a couple of years ago that you had to see a specialist prior to having your referral sent to Dr B this was because of Medicare that wanted this done and then the Endocrinologist would send your information to Medicare after seeing him for a year and then they would approve you for the lapband...now you don't have to go through that step which is wonderful for new patients wanting the WLS.  This cuts down on part of the wait which is great.

Now you just have to have a referral sent to the WLS well Dr B or Dr Savoie and go through the process that way.

Today is a new day - don't beat yourself up - and don't see yourself as failing if you do fall off track. You are human like us all - and we all have fallen off track at one time or another. Deep breath - take it day by day - keep positive - and good luck!

Believe me, most of us *****ed, complained and did everything BUT suck it up, while we were waiting. It is a h*ll of a long wait, and no, it is not fair.  We can't fix the situation, but we will give you all the support that we can. You can't change yesterday, but  tomorrow is another day. If you are able, start walking- out doors. It will help the weight loss, your diet, and depression.