Revelations from 2009 and looking towards 2010

Whew! What a wild year it has been. There will never be another one like it for me. That's a good and a bad thing. First of all I got my long awaited RNY and had a miserable first 3 months. To say I had 'Buyers remorse" would be an understatement for the entire first 3 months. I thank God every day for OH and for Charline and nsgirlliving by the sea (DEB). Had it not been for Charline's encouragement and kindness and Deb's telling me it will get better, just hang in there, I swear I would not have made it. Thank you friends here at OH and of course big big thank you to Charline and Deb!!!

I started this year not being able to stand the taste of water. I am sitting here right now with a glass of ice water beside me. I started the year feeling miserable that I would not be able to eat my 2 or 3 hamburgers with fries and huge pop at the many fast food joints to now where I can't stand the greasy sickening smell of fast food. From missing pizza to I can't eat it because it is too salty. I can say with total honesty I eat so much better now than I did 12 months ago it is almost unreal. I thank RNY for that. I thank RNY for the 70 pounds I have lost since February. I am at my own personal goal of 180 but will strive for my health care team goal of 160.

Now don't get me wrong I still have a handful of chips or a couple of candies or a small sliver of cake or pie once in awhile but I stop at that. It sastifies the craving and it's  all I want.

A dietitian told me years ago that the reason I didn't like real food was because my taste buds were dulled and numbed from years of eating fast food filled with salt, grease and chemicals. I thought to myself "yeah sure"  but now I see what she was saying. When I taste fast food it is a greasy, salty, cardboardy glob that I can't stomach. I suppose I could eat my way back to liking the stuff but I will try to avoid that. I feel the same way about fast food as I do about smoking. I could take up smoking again  too but will try to avoid that too. LOL

That was 2009 and now I look forward to 2010 and wonder what it will bring to all of us here at OH. For me I hope to reach 160 by summer. For all of you I wish you great weight loss and a good relationship with your bands and sleeves and RNYs. For all of those waiting for surgery, I can honestly say I feel your pain and I wish you speedy progress.

To everyone I wish you a joyous and prosperous new year.

   

Ahhhh shucks (blush) thanks. You are a special part of the magic of our forum too.You always have an encouraging word (I feel a country western song coming on! LOL) when folks are feeling discouraged too.

Right back at ya Maggie and I was happy to be able to pay it forward- I certainly knew what you were going through thats for sure ! lol

Happy New Year!

xo
deb

Well - shi* - I had planned to say "Right back at ya" - but Deb did it first. So - I wish the same to you - and to Deb too!