WOW!!!

I've been reading all the latest posts and have experienced a whole range of emotions!!  I haven't been on the site in a while and didn't really know why!  I also haven't had a nights sleep in a while and while reading the posts, it's dawned on me why I haven't done either.  I'm scared to death of this whole process and working really hard at putting it out of my mind.  No reason to worry about it until the night before.  WRONG!.  It sits down there low and festers anyway!  So I want to thank everyone for sharing and being so open and honest, regardless of whether you're preop or postop! It's made me look at what's actually going on in my head and maybe now that I can express it,  I can get some sleep again!

I thoroughly enjoyed the little exercises.  It makes the surgery look very small in the whole picture.  The posts made me rethink what I was doing and push me towards being comfortable with that decision!  Now if I could only experience some patience in the process!   I like things to be done yesterday!!!

Now off to Charline's second exercise!!

 

I will be so glad when the deed is done and second thoughts are no longer an option.  If I could loose weight onb my own I would be 135 pounds!  My fellow OHers have helped a lot whenI have had doubts and they will likely have to give me a hand up again, but for now I am going to put an effort into staying positive- every pessimist thinks they are a realist!   When it comes to my life, that describes me well!  So optimism it is even if it kills me! LOL
Hope you sleep well tonight! I am planning to sleep well to night and hope optimism will make up for the fact that I am in Kentville NS and my APNEA machine is in Fredericton!!