Mental problems with food...

I posted this on the RNY board... well almost 3 weeks post-op and down 30lbs...(I think)...I meet with Dr. B on Tuesday to have my staples removed...which is exciting...it still hurts quite a bit...I'm suppose to eat pureed food...but I've found variations...I can't eat bread with the crust I have to cut it off...I am allowed to eat over cooked pasta with sauce...which is a nice change... I do try things I'm not suppose to (it's like the don't touch the hot stove syndrome)...I do get sick at least once a day...typically if I don't chew my food enough, drink when I eat, or eat to fast...(I actually ate some chips today DORITOS...I tried a piece of fudge but that made me really really sick) Everyone keeps telling me that they can notice the weight I'm losing...they notice it in my face they tell me... I'm trying to deal with the fact that I need to eat healthier...maybe it will be easier when they tell me my diet can be more open (i.e. salads)... I do try and get enough water each day... I have a really hard time getting in my vitamins each day...I have to break up into 4 pieces and takes me about 1hr to finish off the vitamin because I need to take one piece and let it digest... I was put in my place by the members on the board...that I should see a shrink...that I'm headed down the wrong road...and guess what: they are right...but I needed to hear that...I need someone in my head...shaking their finger asking me what in the world am I doing...I do need that...I have no self control

Well today was turkey day for us today... this morning I couldn't eat...I tried some apple sauce and was able to have about 1/4 cup... this afternoon I tried a toasted tuna sandwich (without the crust)...that did not stay down...I'm allowed to have toast and tuna...but no go... I tried apple sauce and also yogurt...no go... For supper I was able to keep a little pureed turkey, potatoes, squash, and turnip down...keep in mind I'm talking teaspoons...I took my time...ate slowly...did not drink with it...and it stayed down okay...I did have a moment where I felt sick...but it passed...the inital bite of anything hurts...is that normal??? even apple sauce.... I was really active today too...I went for a nice long walk...and went out and did things with my hubby in the yard...which I have to admit I haven't DONE in forever....probably in years...it felt good....

Hey Sarah, Well it sounds like you had a better day on Turkey day. From what I've been reading on the board, it's completely normal to have good days and bad. I have a freind who has lost over 100 lbs with the surgery you have had and I know for a fact she is drinking beer and eating junk (take-out). It's not a very healthy way to go about it but she's losing and that's still better than the alternative (she was on a lot of meds for various medical problems and have to stop working) Long story short....tell Doctor B you want to talk to the Psychologist. I did long before I went through with this cause I knew I was going to struggle with drinking and eating junk on the weekends. I still do but now I play a little head game with myself and pretend I'm a little tiny thing that hardly eats.......model/dancer etc.....I know it's silly but most times it keeps me from reaching for the bag of chips or going through the drive-thru. I also have a tank top that I bought at a rock show that is not even close to fitting me - it's an incentive so I keep it out where I can see it when I'm watching tv and want to snack...... Everything you are thinking and feeling is completely normal - we are all going through it so don't get down on yourself........we're going to beat this thing together sista ;0)

Hi Sarah I am waiting for a date for surgery have had info session next step is signing consent forms I guess. Would love to ask a few questions would you please e-mail me at [email protected] ? Thank you.