gluttony won today.

Okay.  I am a year and a half out--and I've only gotten sick 4 or 5 times (that was enough that I watch my sugar VERY carefully).  So tell me why today.  Just this afternoon.  I threw it all out the window to have some ice cream.  I don't tolerate milk well.  I don't drink it or eat it unless it's cooked in something.  I've had a bite of ice cream here or there....but awhile ago I ate an entire cone from Bruster's of Turtle flavor ice cream.  fully loaded and absolutely sinful!  Even as I ate it, I said "Mary, this is gonna make you sick!  Don't do it!"  But I did.  The entire f!@#g thing.  geez.  it was so good then...but it hurts soo bad now.  :(  ack. i think i'm gonna go gag awhile.  just posting as a reminder this is a *tool*  and it still takes soooo much willpower.  and today my willpower sucks. mary

Mary..i sooooooooo agree with you honey..I know exactly what you mean. i have been realy aggravated with myself lately, i been finding my self snacking and lord knwos i CANT DO THIS..I know better than that. Like today i KNOW not to eat junk food and today i had two little debbie oatmeal cakes..not at the same time but i did have the..and i so know better thanto have that kind of junk..I have got to stop ding this..i soo was hurting afterward. I guess thats what it took to remeind me of the hard work i ahve put into this for the last year and i have to CONTINUVE we cant stop now. I know i enjoyed them but will NOT eat them no more.. Well girl hope ur alright and feeling better talk to yo uson Missie

Mama said there'll be day's like this, there'll be days like this my mama said... Mama said, mama said.... LOL Sorry you feel ill, but don't beat yourself up.  Sometimes we just have to give into our temptations.  As long as you aren't doing it everyday.  ;-)

 

thanks, kimberly.  :)  You're sweet to remind me.  Honestly, that day was weird.  It was almost like I wanted to make myself sick.  that weird self-destruction attitude.  Thankfully it's gone now...but I really felt bad a couple of days---due to eating junk and snacking and nothing of nutritional value.  I've since straightened up.  haha.  I'm very happy with my size right now.  Don't care if I lose more or not.  I'm 5'9" and 175.  and for a revision, I think that's pretty darn good.  I eat well and play well...and am working on the exercise part of it all.  it's coming along slowly. anyway. glad to see you're doing well. talk to ya later on! mary