Help please.... prayers!

Ok guys... I've been putting off telling everyone what is going on with us because, well, I don't know why. I know I can always count on this group to help with prayers and such... Ok, first, we had a wonderful, relaxing vacation in Wisconsin, and then Monday when we come home, Scott returns to work only to be told that they are replacing him, or doing away with his position, or something to that effect. Either way, there is nothing for him in this branch anymore, or any close to us but that he was welcome to go through the application process - within the same company no doubt - for a transfer to another branch and they would give him excellent references. Well, we don't want to move to AZ and that's pretty much the only thing out there. Scott is still working at this point, but we have about 100 resumes out all over the country. (where we are willing to go). Scott ha**** bottom this weekend, and for those of you who know Scott, know that it is hard to get him down. I think he really thought that he'd be getting tons of phone calls at this point and he could tell this company to "stick it"! (to be polite!) I've taken on a second job, I already had a church job that allowed me to work from home except during church services of course, and that job has been such a blessing. But not knowing when Scott could walk in the door and be told it's his last day was really worrying me, so I went and got a second job in the evening. I guess it's really my 3rd job because I also sell on Ebay - and that can be a full time thing! Anyway, I'm working at a convenient store and a liquor store that are owned by the same person. Bless his heart, he is trying to just give me hours! He doesn't know Scott's job is on the line, but he understands that we really needed a second income right now. We are SO in debt - not as badly as many people, but we do have some loans that I really want to pay off before we are unemployed. And about that -- if they "fire" Scott, I don't think he'll qualify for unemployment, which is why I think they are handling it the way they are because rumor has it they are doing this with almost every person in Scott's position at all the branches in the Southeast. The hurricane REALLY hurt his sales, but they are all rebuilding now and the money is starting to come in again, but they aren't letting us stay to get it. Some "golden boy" will walk in and get Scott's commissions that he's worked hard for all year long... and I mean HARD for - shoveling crap, walking into buildings with black mold and knee high "crud". You all know what I'm talking about. He was down there the week after helping these dentists salvage what they could etc.... and now they are repaying him. Except he won't get it. I'm SO PISSED! It's all so aggrivating. This is the second time our family has been devistated in Mississippi so we are thinking this is God's way of getting us out of here and closer to our aging parents - his in AL and mine in GA. We keep getting little whispers like, "got your resume, expect a call - you sound like the man for the job" but no phone calls yet. No emails, nothing! Scott is probably one of the MOST hard working people I know. I just don't understand why this is happening to us again! And now, with my "rant" out of the way, let's talk about my eating. Can we say EMOTIONAL EATING with a vengeance. Right now I'm sitting here with an XL bag of peanut M&M's. My blood sugar is sky high - I also have a bloody mary - I'm going nuts! I know what you are going to say .... Put away the food, put away the liquor, put away the sleeping pills - all will be OK... But fear is a very dangerous thing, and I just keep looking at my 3 beautiful children, wonder where the next meal will come from, wonder how to pay the utilities, and I'm just FED UP! I'll shut up now... just PLEASE keep us in your prayers, prayer for a GOOD, reliable job. Especially one that will pay his gas instead of us having to pay it like we do now! I mean, I'm not trying to be picky God - but it sure whould be nice. I know HE has a plan for us, I'm just finding it hard to find it, ya know? I want that "instant gratification" and He ain't budging on it! Patience is a virtue right? You can live on Ramen noodles and rice right? Ok, I feel a little better - could be the venting - could be the sugar - but probably is the bloody mary! *evil grin* I love you guys, and I'm just sorry that I'm so "in and out" lately. I've just been so overwhelmed. I do try to read the board daily, and am praying for the problems others are having. I'm also excited about the upcoming surgeries! It's a different world after gastric bypass folks - and I can't WAIT for you to get there! HUGS! Kimberly

You are on overload girl. I'm so sorry!!! But put those unpouch worthy things away----please. Spend as much time w/hubby as possible this weekend. Pray for guidance. Don't let this bad thing still your joy. HE HAS A PLAN!!!!! What exactly does your hubby do and who has he been working for? The board is here for you. I will be. Bless your heart. glenda

Thanks Glenda! Unpouchworthy things are all tucked away in the kiddo's cabinet! I'm back on track after my little tirade/pity party! LOL Currently my hubby sells dental digital equipment and software. He's a good salesman and has 10+ years experience selling computer/digital equipment in various areas. For what it's worth. Thanks so much! Kimberly

Dang it, girl. It just rains does it? I've been told that God doesn't put anything on us that we can't handle. Well, in that case, I just wish he didn't think quite so much of me. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted. Meghan

Thanks Meghan! He must think tons of us all right now! Seems that everyone is having some difficult times lately, from medical to financial to relocation. Alot is changing! I'm sure it's all good. Thanks for listening to my pity party. HUGS Kimberly

Very very wise words indeed. Thanks so much for the lift. I found it interesting that our sermon was on this very topic today. LOL God is definately working in this, and I know it.... I feel it! I feel so much better after letting it go and keeping my eye "on the prize". That's not to say that I don't/won't have weak moments, I am human, and as humans we tend to grumble alot! But I do feel very lifted right now and I'm sure glad to know people like you! Thanks again! BIG HUGS! Kimberly

I am so sorry you guys are going through this right now. I know that it is a devestating feeling especially when you have children to take care of and feed and clothe. I do pray God will provide you peace as you wait on his plans for you. But, in the meantime, put away the food and liquor LOL. Hey, you said we would say that. No, really, when you eat and drink to soothe yourself or whatever it is we think we are doing by eating or drinking, you are not hurting those people who deserve it that are causing your pain. You are only hurting Kimberly who is kind and caring and doesn't deserve it. So, love Kimberly, and put that crap away and think of something to do that will hurt those that deserve it LOL. (Evil grin). Just teasing. Don't hurt anybody. LOL. When you think about it, we have used food to comfort or fix our problems, but really after we eat the sh*t, the problem is still there along with the guilt we feel because we gave in and ate the mess. I feel for you because old habits die hard and emotional eating has always been my pitfall too. It is a hard habit to break. But I will keep you in my prayers. If you ever need a sympathetic ear, please email me and I will give you my phone number. Love ya girl, Melissa

Dang... for a minute there I thought you were giving me permission to "go postal"!!! Ok, I won't hurt anyone, promise! I WILL NOT give into temptation! I've put away the tempting stuff, and stocked up on the good stuff. You're right! I've come way too far to let something like this send me back! I ain't goin' down without a fight! No emotional sabatoge going on here! Thanks for the ever lasting encouragement! You truly are an inspiration! How is your sister? Dad? Family? Y'all have had some things thrown at you this year! Everyone doing well? HUGS! K

Everybody is doing okay right now. My sister is feeling much better. She is trying to build her strength back up to get ready for her other Crohn's surgery in November. She has a biopsy coming up in August of that lymph node in her neck that refuses to go down. They don't seem too worried about it but they want to biopsy it just in case. So keep praying for her that it comes out okay and she doesn't have Hodgkin's. She is still a little scared. They feel like it is just still swollen from the CMV she had. But it is the only one that hasn't gone down and been giving her trouble for a little while. Melissa

Kimberly, I am so sorry that you guys are having to go thru this right now. I don't know if there is anything on here that might interest your hubby, but it wouldn't hurt to take a look: http://www.spb.state.ms.us/appltest/soctseq.asp? I owe you so much, if it had not been for you telling me about Dr. Cleveland and the discount they were offering that day we were all at Cracker Barrel, I would not have been able to have my surgery. I was so at the point of giving up and you gals helped me find my way. So if there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know! Love ya, Marci