Update on Me

I have an appointment with Pine Grove tomorrow at 11a. My mother is taking me. If I have a problem with my insurance I will go to EAP which is thru our work. I am at my apartment tonight trying to get a little back to normal. I hope I can get some medicine for sleeping and anxiety. I think that would help. I feel a little better this afternoon. Not as depressed as I was. Maybe it will keep getting better. Thank you all for your support and for not judging me. This is not me at all and I have had a lot of people helping me this weekend get thru this. Love you all...

Christine 1st of all I am so proud of you. You have made a GIANT step in admitting your problem. You must be relieved but also very scared. Just know we are here for you and who are we to judge. I am so glad you shared this and I can pray for something more directly. If you don't have a pastor please consider Tommy. If you ever go inpatient and need him he can come visit. He is good to talk to and is wonderful at listening and prayin too. He is my husband but he does get alot of young couples and young adults requesting time to counsel with him. Just know we are here. Love always. Jane and Tommy

Christine, I've been where you are. When my twins were born, and only one came home (still hard to say "that word"), I turned to alcohol every single day to get me through. I also took pain meds religiously. Not many people know this, so I'm letting the cat out of the bag here, but I just wanted you to know that I TRULY do understand what you are going through. My wake up call was waking up one morning - er - afternoon, with my then 1st grader sitting at the computer instead of being in school. He missed 17 days in one month because I just couldn't get it together enough to get him there. And that was just one of the 6 months I was "lost". I know about depression, I know about addictions, and I know about pain. I also know about recovery - and the life that can be had after it. Just take care of yourself, and when you feel it getting the best of you - think of your daughter, think of yourself, and know that you CAN and WILL get through this. Life is big - but God is bigger. Just hang in there and lean on us when you need to. We'll be here. HUGS Kimberly 601-898-4778

Okay, I'm crying ... Christine, FIRST let me tell you how very much I admire you for "sharing the secret" ... I am also having a problem with alcohol. At first, I thought ... you're just bored. Then I justified it .. because I'm bored ... truth be told, I HAVE turned from one addiction to another. I spoke with a friend the other night (she's having the SAME problem)and said to her, " Food's not my best friend anymore ... Now, Wine and Vodka are." She said to me, "Kimberly, don't tell anyone. We'll get thru this together" ... I wanted to tell. I needed to tell. But I was afraid to tell. What do you do with all this? How do you say I'm having a problem with alcohol? What will people think? I was recently elected president of my local support group. Yet, they don't know "my secret" ... I'm the one that always has it together. Christine, the bottom line is, I dont have it together. YET. I have faith that I will though. I have tremendous faith that you will, too. We are works in progress. I KNOW the answers .. for some reason, I can't apply them to myself. YOU have made paved a road for the ones of us that are like you ... for that, I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart. I believe many of us just try and hide behind something that temporarily makes us numb. Food made us numb and now alcohol does. I've learned addictions are addictions ... if we don't come to terms with our self esteem and finally figure out what's causing us to be addicts, we always will be addicted to something. WE are better than that. You, Me and Everyone else reading this post ... WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life .. Now, we just have to figure out why we can't contemplate why we think we are not. Because I KNOW and YOU know we are. I would have NEVER shared my story had it not been for you ... KNOW that YOU are not alone. KNOW that I understand .. and please know that no matter we've been, here we are ... and I believe you to be one of the bravest women I've "met." I stand beside you ... and I am your friend. Please call me if you ever want too. My numbers are 601-720-5257 or home 601-825-2934. A friend in awe ... Kimberly

Kimberly, It takes a lot of courage for you to tell too. I think we can all get thru this once we finally admit it. My mother told me I needed to be in some sort of support group and I thought about it and realized I was - even though this is an obesity support group - I feel like we are all family. If I cant tell yall, how can I tell complete strangers. We have to get out of this addictive behavior and really learn how to face our problems and actually DEAL with them. I wouldnt mind having a cold one right now but I instead will have a water. WATER?!?!? Yes.. me... I am drinking water. I havent had a red bull in 4 days. Hip Hip Hooray. Although it dont sound half bad. WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life

Christine, YES we are ... WE are worth saving. WE are worth having a better life!! We'll do it together, chicky You sound like you have a relationship with your Mom like I do mine. It's wonderful but she's right more than I care to admit,lol. Her oldest baby (me) turns 41 in two weeks ... know what though? I'm soooooooooo happy I'm her baby. Like you, I wish I was havin' a lil' something right now. I'm not. I do wish I were though ... it's harder than most can imagine.I no longer EVER want anything to have control over me, but me. I just keep reciting the "Serenity Prayer" ... cause I know this, I can can change. Not alone, but with support from people like you and all the people here. I called my psych eval doctor today. I LIKE her and know I NEED someone to talk too that can steer me in the right direction. My daughter (she's 18) told me today, "Mom, you have to let it go,whatever it is.... learn to take care of you." Yes, I birthed a genius,lol. Christine, in all honesty, I never thought in a zillion years a message board could help me ... I learned last night after your post, that it could. Again, thank you for that. Hugssssssssssssss, Kimberly