What did you eat today---Tues

I ate alot. 4 am--banana and 2 tbs peanut butter 8 am 1/2 cup grits with marg and tbs strawberry jam 1/2 cup milk 1/2 cup coffee 11:30 am 1 oz hamburger meat with stir fried carrots and onion 2pm cheese--2 oz--3 ritz crackers 3 pm 1 choc covered cherry and one mini giraldi choc--excuse spelling 5 pm--mexican pizza from Taco Bell--yes the whole thing. I was stuffed. With the choc I got the fats in for sure. 3 fats is what I was aiming for today. Not any veggies much today. 6 or 7 protein exchanges---3 milks 2 fruits 4 starches at least. Maybe 4 cups of liquids. BADBAD I am going to post my food and see if that helps. Keep it up Dawn!! I have had a bad day with my mental being. We have alot going on at our house with my 10 and 19 yr old. I am so stressed I think I will break. I have cried enough to make our own flash flood today. Got so bad at 2 pm I took a muscle relaxer and 2 benedryls. That helped me get through the rest of my day running here and there for the kids. I am going to get a hot bath and try to sleep tonight. I haven't slept for 2 nights. Please, if you pray, remember me and mine. I need God so badly to sustain me. If it weren't for my faith I would surely faint and go by the way. It helped me so much to see everyone at the support group meeting. I feel like it was a giant leap toward the right direction concerning my eating issues. I dominated the meeting alot but had so much to say. I felt so welcome to open up last night. Just know I lurk alot more than I post here. I do pray for all of you and see your requests. Sonya I missed you at the meeting -- I have been worried about you girl. Melissa looked radiant--little mug!! She is so the bomb now!! And her sidekick wasn't so bad either--that is so funny how that Melissa we saw last night looked so funny at us. We thought we had her pegged as Melissa S. She thinks we are lunatics for sure. She may never join us now. You do have to be a little off balance to comunicate iwth us. Sorry!! Love Jane

Ok, time to own up..... Breakfast 3/4 cup of oatmeal with butter pat and salt 1/2 cup of coffee Break 1 packet of soda crackers Water Lunch 3 left over homemade tacos, with corn shell, meat, cheese and onions 1 piece of SF cheese cake 1 bite of banana Break 3 blocks of SF chocolate bar Dinner Fried boneless chicken tender 2 potato wedges with catsup 1 T. green sauted veggies 5 spears of asparagus fresh with cheese 1 diet coke No more Diet coke for a while, I need to drink more water!!!! Jane, Dont stress too much, Teenagers like all things do pass and grow up, there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you.... Just keep smiling and try to deal with things as best you can..... Cheryl

Okay, here goes. B 1/2 Bacon/Cheese omelet from Dan's Diner S 1 pc string cheese and 1/2 sf russell stover caramel egg L weight control oatmeal and ready bacon S 1/2 apple with 1 tbs peanut butter 1/2 russell stover sf caramel egg D 1/2 c hamburger helper 1/4 to 1/2 c. broccoli 1 small roll S 3 sf cookies I then went to the gym and did my first real workout since my plastic surgery. Got home and was hungry so I had some low sugar froot loops with lactaid and a few sf choc chips. Melissa Glad you felt comfortable to open up last night at the meeting. That is exactly how it is supposed to be. Please feel free to contact me when you need some support. I know exactly where you are coming from as I have food obsessions too.

5am coffee/1/2 protein bar 8:00 3 scrambled eggs 12:00 Broccolli, shrimp, sprinkled with mozzerella 1pm coffee 3:30 protein bar in the car while waiting to pick up kids 6:00 1 piece of bread, 1/2 cup chili 8:00 1/2 cup chili 9:00 SF Philly Swirl pop 12:00 SF Philly Swirl pop (dog woke me up again) I noticed another pattern. I feel a compulsion to eat in the car, especially when I am waiting in carpool line in the afternoon. Jane, I've learned I am a compulsive eater too. I don't know what was said at the meeting Monday but I have found a little notebook I carry with me helps me. I write down when I eat, what I eat, when I take my meds/vitamins, when and how much water and a little commentary section that has what I was feeling/thinking/doing that could relate to my food choices. Everytime I skip the journal for a few days, I lose my way. Melissa gave me the idea, she is the journal Queen. She showed me how she uses her journal and now I really depend on mine. Elesha

B~protein shake L~~I was sooooooooooo starving after my first ever spin class i ate wayyyy to much ! I had about half of a rotesserie chicken, yhea it was a small bird, but i had no idea that i could hold that much . Any ideas guys on how to deal with that after work out ravanous hunger? S~2 strawberries, way toooooooo mauny nuts and 1 oz beef jerky all this was grazed on though out the afternoon ! I will still starving!!! D~Ok i went to a yoga/paliaties class before dinner, that calmed my down, it was a challange though to hold those streaches! I ate after i got in from the class. 1/2 cup knug po chicken,(homemade of course) and 1/4 cup of white rice. Drank a ton of water and green tea today! took my vits. I will keep it up Jane i love this post , I think its a BIG help to me. I too sturggle with my eatting addictions everyday, along with other eatting disorders, that arent much fun themselves! I know what its like to be crying all the time too, i have been for weeks now, its been worse the past 4 days. I know my reasons for my latest crying spells is kindda silly , but i cant help it. My14yr old persain cat died in my arms saturday night. I cant seem to get over it i cant even sleep for crying . Donnie is about ready to have my commeted! lol I will be remembering you in my prayers. DAWN

Sorry about your cat. I lost my 16 year old persian cat back in December. Our whole family cried like babies. She was really my Daddy's baby. She was a gift to me by a high school boyfriend. But when I got married Daddy wouldn't let me take her. She was attached to him and me. Melissa

Thanks Melissa, My whole family cryed too when i called and told them, He was there first grand baby! DAWN

Dawn, I am so sorry about your cat. I can only imagine how you feel. I would be lost if something happened to one of my babies. I know it is hard, it feels like you lost a family member, and in a way, you did. But please keep in mind, there are a lot of animals at the humane society that need a good home, to keep them alive. If my husband would let me, I would have a dozen kitties I think. They love you so unconditionally.. Love ya, and I am going to miss you at the meeting Monday night.... Rhonda

Thanks Rhonda, I can hardley belive that he is gone i keep looking for him in all his usual spots. I even went down the cat food isle at the grocerie store yesterday, I almost cryed when i reilzed that i dont need to buy cat food anymore! I'm just not ready to get a new kitty , this hellion of a dog that i got is a handful as it is! Anybody what a mean 5 mo old pekingese? lol I hate i wont be able to make it to the meeting monday too! Oh find out how Bridgette, Margrets daughter is doing she has been on my mind . DAWN

Okay... I made copies of those daily food intake sheets that Ann gave us and I have them in a binder. I am going to do it faithfully... 8:00 Link Biscuit from Wards 9:30 Beef and Cheese Stick 12:00 6 fried shrimp (removed all breading that I could) and french fries 3:00 3 PB Girl Scout Cookies (OH MY GOSH!!) 5:00 Raw Hotdog 7:30 Spaghetti and peice of bread 10:30 Cheese Dip and a few Fritos OH MY -- Gotta get this under control. I will have Brocolli tonight.