I'm here...finally **warning....ranting below**

Sorry I've been away for um....ever. I had a funeral for my old PC. I got a new one right before Thanksgiving but I've had company since so haven't been able to drop by till now. I hope everyone is doing well and that you all had a great Thanksgiving. To everyone who's gotten approved for surgery or had surgery, congrats! I have nothing new to report on the status of my surgery. This waiting game blows but I guess nothing good in life comes easy. I have to admit it's gotten me a bit down lately. Which proves how important support is. I really feel with me not being able to get to my support group and then not being able to come on here has added to my depression over this waiting crap. But hopefully now that I'm back that will change. I guess what's really getting me down is how many limitations there are in my life now due to my weight. I have major trouble with my back to the point that standing/walking for over 15 mins or so makes me want to rip it out and get a new one. This impacts everything from making dinner for my family, (I have to use a chair if the meal is one where it takes a while to prepare), to cleaning my house, ( I have to take many many many breaks to let my back rest so I can finish), to shopping, (grocery shopping for the week has to be done by my husband), to turning down the new neighbor who wants me to visit in the mornings for coffee, (she lives two blocks away and I can't walk that far *we're a one car family so I can't drive down there*). It almost feels like it became this way overnight but I know that's not true. Slowly I got to the point where I am now, so slowly in fact that I guess you don't even see it coming and when it hits you your like how the heck did this happen?!? I guess all I'm trying to say is I really want my life back and I KNOW the surgery can do that for me, and as most of you know during this waiting part it's like you've won this great prize in life but it's just being dangled in front of you in an almost torturous way. Ok now I feel a bit overdramatic but I'm sure you all get my point. Anyways sorry to rant on forever. I just needed to get that off my chest and I know my MS OH family would understand more then anyone. Well I hope your all having a great day and I'm very very very happy to be back. Hugs and love to you all, Keli

Hey Keli, I'm glad your back. I've missed you. Sorry about the loss of your old computer. But hey, at least you got another one. I had withdrawal symptoms when mine died a while back. I hope that you hear something soon about your surgery. I fully understand the taking breaks while doing anything & everything. Trust me !!! My sweet hubby has done the shopping for a long time. I'm getting out & doing more. Thank God. However, a lot of my getting out & going is to places that have scooters to ride. I didn't want to be one of those "scooter riders" & just stayed at home. Then about 2 months before surgery, my local bestest friends told me that I was just as good as anyone else in this town & to get my tail into Sam's, hop on a scooter & shop !!! Ever since then..... I Go !!! I go to Sam's & Wal-Mart mainly because of the scooters. But I make sure that I get my walking in. When I'm not riding- hubby is. Doll you just rant away. I know that it helps to get it off your chest. I do it when something is bothering me & you should too. People shouldn't hold it against you. I don't. But then again... around here (with some) you never know. They usually only hold things against me. But I don't really care Anyways... Glad your back !!! Tammy

Yep I know what you mean about the scooters. Besides the fear of being the 29 yr old on the scooter, I'd prolly end up running someone over! Anyways I see that today is your B-day! I hope you have a good one! Keli

I turnned 38 today !!! I'm too young to be on a scooter also !!! Or so I thought. Seeing all the great deals @ the store you can't get online, changed my mind. Run over someone ? Knock em out of the way. They will move. They will either move on their own or with a limp Plus, once you hit someone, it just makes it easier the second time Honestly people are good about getting out of the way. It could be the way I come flying up at them But they usually move. Oh & the scooters have horns. You can barely hear it blowing, but it's one on them. Instead of a Beep-Beep.... its a peep-peep. Sit on the horn !!! Tammy

Happy Birthday Tammy!!! Go Tammy, its your birthday!! Go Tammy, its your birthday!! Sounds like you are doing alot better these days. I hope it continues to go well for you... Christine PS.... I never thought you were even close to 38...

Thank ya Doll !!! I am doing great right now. (trying not to jinx myself) I am walking poor ole Johnny to death He doesn't know what to think or what to do. It's so funny. After years of not being able to or even want to walk, now it seems like I can sit still. Oh well, I'll give him a vitamin & tell him hush !!! I really am 38. But thats OK, my sis in law kept trying to tell me I was 40. NOT !!! Well, Not yet anyways. She can check back in two years How are you ? Settling in OK ? I sure hope so. Tammy

Hey there Kelli Glad to hear from you. I have been better lately. They diaagnosed me wtih 2 ulcers but I feel better since starting meds about 6 weeks ago. I have lost about 125 pds now and feel like a little light weight. Believe me I am not. I weigh 220 and still wear soze 18 clothes. BUT I can do a lot of different things and can all things better and longer. I had the back problem too. It felt like something was pulling down on my lower back. Now I have no pain and stand all day. I hardly sit down and that is amazing. I used to be a recliner girl half of the time. Don't give up and maybe knowing we have all been there will help. Waiting is so nerveracking. We are here for you anytime. Rant away. Hope fully after the holidays we can get together in H'burg. Talk more later. Jane

Hi Jane! So glad to hear you're doing better now and the weight loss is so inspiring. I know you must feel awesome! I know I prolly sound like a whiner but it really can get to you sometimes. It's good to know I have an outlet though. Thanks for letting me rant and I'd love to plan a get together! Keli

Hey Keli! I am so glad to hear from you. I know it is so discouraging. We have got to get after yours and Joyce Richardson's Docs to get them on the ball and take care of you two. I know the pain of trying to walk. I have been riding scooters for AGES in walmart. I figure why not? They put them there for me so I can spend my money in their store....and believe me....all my money goes to Walmart!!! And now I ride Christine since I have the lift. It's funny, tho, how people don't "see" you when you are in a scooter or wheelchair, but I make it pretty hard to ignore me!!!! And in my meanest moments when someone steps in front of me, looks down, and looks off real quick and won't move, I nudge them! MOST of the time when I do this I get NO reaction!!!! Sometimes (seldom) I get an apology from the person!!!! I believe EVERYONE should be confined to a scooter or a wheelchair for at least one week of their lives. It surely would change some attitudes!!! Oh, well, there's always gotta be something!!!!! Smoochies Arlies PS don't get too depressed and discouraged. The LONG wait will be worth it.

That's a good point about the scooters. I think it's more a thinking everyone will be looking at me thinking look at the fat girl having to ride the scooter. That and Petal being such a small town. But hopefully this won't be an issue for too too much longer. I'm starting to think I need to get my mom to scare the insurance people into hurrying up with my approval. *ask Melissa about my mom lol* Anyways thanks for the nice words. It's great to be back! Keli