Struggling

Hi guys! I'm really struggling today. I didn't go to work today due to female problems (pretty severe, woke me up during the night) and I feel like crap right now. In the past when I've felt this bad, I will eat throughout the day (to make me "feel" better). I have my two boys (4 and 8) at home with me and they are both 150% "boy" (which is like having 3 ), my house is a mess b/c I've been working and taking some "me" time to excersize (which I'm glad I'm doing!), but the house gets to me (along with the boys fighting and misc. which stresses me out and I feel like I'm not a good mother) and I don't feel like doing anything right now. Sorry to whine, but it has already been a help to me this morning to come on the message board and read what you guys have posted ! I'm so proud of you guys and then at the same time I feel like such a failure and I'm scared I'm not going to be able to do it! I think I'm the only one on here that hasn't done well with this. (Can you tell I'm hormonal?! ) I'm putting this for accountability: B: 1 cup of Fibre One cereal, 1/2 cup of milk, 1 banana S: 1 tablespoon of peanut butter and 1/4 of an apple I'm proud of the excersize (walking) we've done over the past week (I really started back on the "journey" last Tuesday- Thank you Sonya!) Tuesday: 2 miles Wed: Church didn't walk Thursday: 2 miles Friday: 3 miles Saturday: Water park Sunday: 3 miles Monday: 3 miles Today: I feel like a big fat bloated slob!

Hi Joy, SSSHHHH - don't tell anybody I actually posted. But HANG IN THERE!!! Depending upon how far you are out of surgery, there are a LOT of things going on inside. It is a big nutitional change that happens over several months after surgery. The exercise looks great and the diet looks great - remember to stay hydrated (causes nausea and fatigue) and keep up on iron. Two common nutritional issues - B-12 deficiency and anemia. Everything causes increased frustration and irritability and TWO young men in the house - survival is an accomplishment! you may feel like you are not doing well, but it sounds like you are doing great! Remember everyday is better, easier, feels more like "normal" because you are in the process of rebuilding normal. Like I said, hang in there! james.

Hey Doc... Where ya been?? Yea, we see ya hiding.. How have you been? Can ya go fishing and catch us some Amberjack. Its getting expensive to eat out all the time... Hope you are doing well. Quit being a stranger!

Hey James, Saw on your profile that you are a professional counselor. Me, too! I work at West Jones Elementary School. Just wanted to say hey. Try not to analyze my comments on here to hard. You might diagnose me with multiple personality disorder. See ya! Sonya Sumrall

Is West Jones Elementary where people who live in Ellisville will go? What grades are at the school where you are???

Christine, Some of the Ellisville kids go to my school. Most go to South Jones Elementary. My school is Kindergarten through Sixth Grades. We have about 900 children. Sonya

WHO is this fishing capped man????????? Love ya to bits! Smooch Arlies

Hey Joy, I'm so sorry that your having a hard time today. I'll keep you in my prayers thru out the day. 2 boys at home @ that age ??? Whew.. I'd of been tired when I got up. Actually, I'd went back to bed & put the covers over my head. Don't beat yourself up about taking "Me Time". Everyone needs it !!! Your a great person & I'm sure the day will work itself out for you. It has to... God is on your side & I'm praying for you Tammy

Thank you James and Tammy! I'm teary eyed as I read this. It's just depressing when I think what I've wasted and where I could have been if I hadn't gotten off track. I hope and pray I can still get there! It's going to be harder going now though (I'm over a year out) It's still slightly embarassing to admit all of this (although it's obvious I haven't lost as much as other people).

You are diffenitly hormonal. But you are not a big fat slob. Being home with kids can really get to you and so can a messy house. Do you take any type of antidepressant or hormone pills. If you don't you may want to talk to your doc about that. With you trying to get back on track and get things in order again you might need something to help you so you want feel so overwhelmed all the time.Just the challange of the weight loss is enough. Remember that is your house and you can clean whenever, sometimes other things take priority. And school is fixing to start back so maybe that will help with the boys LOL. I hope you get to feeling better. You can do this just keep a positive attitude and try not to be too hard on yourself. I read once it takes 4 weeks to form a habit. So it will take you some time to get back use to eating and excerising right. Take your time and do it right this time. You are not a failure, you may be alittle slower but at least you realized it and are making the changes to fix it. I personally am very proud that even after a year you are taking the steps to get things back on track that says alot for YOU. Becky