What did you eat 7/27/05

I knew today was gonna be bad when I got up --first thing I thought of was a cheeto...... 7:30 B: Roast Beef and Cheese Lavish from Walmart (242 Cals) 9:00 S: 4 Trefoils (128 Cals) 12:ish L: Amberjack and steamed veggies with tarter sauce -NO RANCH! (Roughly 120 cals --I get 68 from the fish and 44 for the veggies--What do you get Melissa - I need to know if I am close) 1:30 S: Potato chips - 1.73 ounces = 260 Cals ---PS I had not had chips since the 19th!! 4:00 S: 2 South Beach Cookies (100 Cals) 6:00 S: Mini M&M's - Just a few but I will count as 100 cals cause I dont know. 5:30 S: 1/2 bag of SB party Mix (50 Cals) 6:30 S: Peanuts (140 Cals)-tried to make SF peanut Brittle - Disaster 7:30 D: Boneless Chicken Breast, 1 bite of mashed potato and 1/4 cup of asparagus. (176 Cals) Cals: 1306 + 10 Red Bull + 20 Rock Star = 1336 Fat: 69 Carbs: 105 Protein: 68 Wow!! I sucked today big time! But I did good for the past few days. No chips for several days. I grazed all day... All day... All day... I know I am not supposed to be on protein shakes anymore... but when I dont do them I eat a bad breakfast. Going back to protein shakes in the morning.

B~protein shake L~protein shake D~1 piece of string cheese I had my vits and i have drank my tea and water today. I do part of an exercise video and 100 sit ups and some weights. Im tired!!!!!!

CIB x4 and 90oz of water. I had an awesome day!!! And that is after NOT being able to attend a support group. Practice what you preach.

I was not preaching to anyone. My comment was merely support groups are recovery. The meeting in Keesler is not my normal support group. I have never missed mine. I attend other support groups for more support and visiting. When you are 10 mos out we will see how your eating has changed. I was eating what you were eating at 7 days post op as well and I was at a support meeting 10 days following my surgery.

I wish I was half as faithful about going to meetings like you !!! I figure that after I finally have surgery, that if I feel up to getting out of the house for anything... That I should also be able to attend meetings. I think a lot of times with people (just like myself) where you go, depends on if you really want to go or not. Plain & Simple. Want to go to Wal-Mart ? ummmm YES !!! Want to go to work ? ummmm NO !!! See what I'm saying ?

When you get your surgery we arent going to be able to keep you sitting still. I can see you being a very strong vocal WLS advocate. You wont fail it.. you are strong willed. I couldnt go thru what you have been thru without hurting someone. I fought it for 6 mos and thought I was gonna lose my mind.

Me...... Strong & Vocal Girl you act like you know me !!! I can see myself doing that also. I have to be strong willed. They don't do WLS on inmates

OK... I must be missing something here. "Practice what you preach"..... Where did that come from ? And about "Not" going to a support group meeting... Do you know why hospitals & doctors have support group meetings ? Because they work !!! I'm not saying that everyone who does not go to meeting is going to fail, but it sure improves their chances for success. But I'm sure that YOU ARE one of the few who does not need to go to meetings because you have such a great grasp on self-control & controling everything that you put in your mouth. I'm so glad that you are in a place of having that much self control. So why did you have to have WLS with that much self control But then again.... That is just my humble opinion on the matter.

Its proven fact that after people get their surgeries most quit attending support meetings... do you know what happens to them? They gain their weight back. I understand sometimes you just cant make it but it would have to be a really really good reason for me to miss a meeting. Its such valuable information. I have driven to Meridian and Jackson for meetings before and am very active on this board and in my group. I have met many people at our local support group that have gotten their surgeries and never came back. I just dont understand why... I need the support, I need to be around others like me, I need to listen to the nutritionists and the doctors and other food addicts talk about the demons within and what can be done to help. We organize lunches, bashes, chats, etc to keep ourselves involved.. Doesnt mean we are perfect and arent going to have bad days. I am not sure if it was aimed at my food for the day and my comments towards Tina about controlling what we eat but I have NEVER proclaimed to be perfect and I have never preached to anyone. Yes, I did graze today but my calories are in line with where they should be. I would think though if someone thought I was doing a bad job they would give me some good advice and not tell me to practice what I preach. I dont believe ANY one of us is perfect or we wouldnt have needed this surgery to begin with. I still think alot of people go into this surgery thinking its easy and perfect. Guess what?-- Its not... Its hard. Esp after the frist 6 mos when your appetite comes back. You get the cravings and its hard to fight off 30 years worth of picking up what you picked up a year earlier. I do graze on occasion but I am not packing in 3000 calories a day anymore either. I dont always give in but I am no saint.

I've got to start going on a regular basis to meetings. I need support now & afterwards. I know that past behavior is the best way to predict future behavior. I have got to teach myself that the new behavior will be the best & stick with it. My past choices were not & are not the best choices. Which is exactly why my fat tail is sitting here now at 360 pounds. If I was such a smart person in my choices, I'd be thin & healthy. Oh well.... No reason to cry now tho. I have got to learn from my mistakes & do better. Not just try to do better... DO IT !!! Saint I'm not one for sure !!! To me, I seem to graze all the time.... Moo Moo. But I am working on it