What did you eat 7/20/05

I need my ass whipped....The day started out bad and went down from there. Why is it that I cannot resist food? What is the deal? Do I want to be FAT or do I want to be SKINNY. Sometimes I just wanna throw my hands up in the air and scream to the top of my lungs that I GIVE UP. Melissa -- make my butt work out tomorrow. Dont take no lip from me tomorrow. I have 500 cals to burn. Confession: I gained 3 pounds over the past 2 weeks. Been ashamed to say it. I've lost 2 of the pounds. I am on my period.. Its usually the culprit but I have been eating bad... Tomorrow is strictly protein and veggies. I too feel like running and hiding under a bush somewhere because I do feel like a failure. I am not wanting a pity party I want someone to bash me badly and make me feel bad and get me back on track. You've noticed havent you, Melissa... I know you have. Here is my food for today. I almost skipped this post because of embarrassment but I wont.. I will post it. Breakfast: 7 cheese puffs and 1 SF choc covered Graham Cracker (135 Cals) Snack: Peanut brittle (245 Cals) Lunch: Half of a Chicken Cordon Bleu Filled with Cheese and Ham (258 Cals) Dinner: 1/2 taco salad with sour cream (309 Cals) Snack: 1/2 Chili Dog (200 Cals) Snack: 2 ounces of BBQ Chips (320 Cals) Total Calories 1467

Christine, I'm glad you decided to post this message. I haven't had my surgery, but when I went for the psychological eval, he was concerned because I haven't been able to stick to any diets. (Of course, my thought was that if I could, I wouldn't need the surgery.) Anyway, he said he would approve my surgery if I get counseling for binge eating. Besides the general risks of surgery, my next biggest concern is that I won't be able to follow the doctor's eating plan after surgery. What has been your experience? Is this a recent struggle that was okay for awhile after surgery or have you been fighting with this the whole time since surgery. I also invite others to tell their stories regarding the struggle with food since surgery. Thanks for posting and helping those of us who are still pre-surgery. (I have my EGD on 8/2/05. Won't have surgery until Sept. probably.) Deborah

Well Well Well !!! Girl you need to work on that. If you don't it will catch up with you. Right in the seat of those new jeans !!! At least you know that your doing it. That is a major step right there. Just try harder tomorrow. You know what it is..... A Full Moon !!! I feel myself getting into "that" zone. And I don't even have a period. All of my "plumbing" was removed about 4 years ago. I feel like I could eat anything & everything if given half the chance right now. Thank God there isn't any junk in the house, cause if it was.... Poor ole BooBoo wouldn't stand a chance at getting ANY of it. B- Egg Sandwich with Tomatoe D- 1 cup of Tuna Salad & about 10 Crackers S- 2 BBQ Ribs with NO SIDE ITEMS !!! It almost killed me Late night snack- 1 package of Cheese on Cheese Nabs. Today I have drank Tea, CL & Soda's. Not the first bottle of water Right now.... I'd kill for some Blue Bell Birthday Cake Ice Cream. Or a large fully loaded salad & baked potatoe !!!

Christine, I feel the need to kick you but not for why you think. Girl, take another look at what you actually ate...Whoopie, big deal! It wasn't the best eating day ever but it isn't a week-long binge either. If we are required to be perfect in our food choices everyday of the rest of our lives, we've made a horrible choice in this surgery. Lighten up, my friend. Identifying your food behaviors and stopping bad patterns is a good thing but you don't need the guilt/pressure you're putting on yourself. You're beating yourself up too much to ever feel good about the tremendous progress you've made. You look wonderful and you are succeeding! I'll post my foods when I really wake up! I'm going back to bed until 7:30. Elesha Lap/RNY 2/26/02

Ok, I'm almost awake. Foods for yesterday... 7:00 Protein Bar/coffee 10:00 Protein Bar 12:00 2 slices of pizza-not crusts 2:00 a sliver of birthday cake 4:00 1 slice of pizza-no crust 8:00 Pork roast sandwich- 1/2 cup roast with 2 slices toasted wheat bread Fitday clocks me in around 1400 calories Atta girls: good water, good meds, steady blood sugar Could improve on: Could have eaten only half of the dinner sandwich but it was really good so I went back for the second half Elesha LapRNY 2/26/02

I can't whip your a** because I haven't made the best food choices lately myself. I understand the not beating yourself up and getting rid of the guilt just because you had a bad day. Everybody has a bad day from time to time in their eating. But when it becomes an everyday occurence you can't seem to control that is when there is a problem. So do you feel out of control or do you do okay most days? I think you do okay most days according to what you post. So you ate bad yesterday, eat better today. But you do need to get some exercise going on a regular basis in your life. So yes, we are working out today. And there is no getting out of it. Sounds like we need a session of talking anyway. We need to talk about some of your issues and see if we can't come up with something to help you with them. You are really struggling lately, but not just with food choices but with yourself. I think you put so much pressure on yourself that it stresses you out so you can't make the right food choices. I don't know. We will talk later and see what we come up with. Here is what I ate: B waffle sf blueberry jam S protein bar L grilled chicken salad ranch dressing S 1/2 pc cake (bad, but I did add it to my day) D lettuce, tomato, taco meat, cheese, sour cream, 1 tbs crushed chips to make a 3/4 c taco salad; bite of cake S 1/2 banana and 1 tbs peanut butter part of Catherine's pop tart she didn't eat (grrrr) Melissa